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Sunday, October 14, 2007 @ 7:28 PM
talk about boring, and you will have my life. It is so urgh. church was average. was fidgeting alot. restless. stupid. dont even know what i m doing here. yeah. lots to type, but like only these few sentences can be shown. dangg. hate to admit it but my life is better if it never was. was reading caris's lj, and there is this list of 50 things a couple should do. hahaha. how ironic can it get. was reading my old posts. as in waywayway back. when I first started blogging in p5 bahs. haha. see how the language changes, see how the posts progress. and yeapsyeaps. it still exists. somewhere. not telling, so if you reallyreally wanna search, goodluck. someone once told me, life is a dream and love is a fairytale. haha. and naive me went to post it and said I agreed. smiled when I read that sentence. cause i now know full well that fairytales end happily ever after. love ends that way only when you are sane. haha. life aint a dream either darl. life is a nightmare. those living ones that no matter how much you scream and cry, you just cant get out of it, cant pull yourself out. sooner or later, even the strongest succumbed to the pressure. sooner or later you tell yourself you cant feel no more. else you will just flinch from the pain. we live in a disantasized world. no more are we fazed by horror stories. no more are we fazed by gruesome murders. the meekest close their eyes in horror. the strongest just stare blankly ahead. I finally understand it all. I do now. cause i refuse to give you the politically correct answer you are perked to listen for. ohno. no way are you going to bind me down. kill me then. i would welcome it. coz i fully understand now dont i? the only arms that will give me a hug and let me feel safe is death's. |
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