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Thursday, November 29, 2007 @ 8:50 PM
 whoever can live by this, I tell you, you'll get first in standard every year. -this is much to the bemusment of caris and lena. they have warped thoughts, not?
@ 8:18 PM
back home. at long last. the5days seemed to be contradictingly short and long. but I love my friends. (: as promised, photos! - thought I look like SUPER unglam in most of them. caris would happily say that I never look glam. which actually is true, but still..  I look retard.  I look like a cannibal!The rest are with XF. go kill her for it people! thanks to my stupid cam which is half down. ):
The second day's photos were already put up.but to fill up the place..  Kissing cookiepig monster!(: haha. is elmo coming for me? again, inside joke. Oh. she taught me how to fake kiss, drama style, but...I am a debater, not an actress! Spent the whole of yesterday at Bishan library, cause I didnt want to extra at SF church comm meeting. alternatively watched the rain and read sitted snugly behind a pillar that hid me from the view of everyone else, cause it is just one corner at the end.(X oddly enough, the politic section was pretty much empty, so..there wasnt really much of a public to hide from. hahaha..at night..  memory game with UNO! see my house tee? advertising for CEDAR! woots. okay. lame. but randomly, I miss cedar. ): the last night, as I went into the room from using the internet, they were talking about Elmo, and then I think I popped something random. hahaha. I said I lost my train of thoughts, and they said, that I could always use a bike to replace it. X= HAHAHA.
@ 12:34 AM
been staring at this page for such a long time, and inside are so many emotions, so hard to sort out, so hard to put into words; and that's saying something, for how else can one express emotions? there is strain, there is puzzlement, there is stress, there is wonderment, ect. and how exactly to form intelluctual sentences that can be understood, is such a task that is hard to fufil. pics aplenty, memories aplenty, thoughts running rampant in my confused state of the mind. yet for the first, i need the damn usb cable, for the second will be kept locked safely in my mind, and the third, I have no idea how to get rid or use it. 1/2 hour later, I still dunno what to say.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007 @ 10:48 PM
 &I love you too my dear.
@ 10:05 PM
sometimes I have a feeling that loving and losing is better than to have never attempted those boundaries before. but that's an irrational type of thinking, but ohwells, dont deny a teen of her wistful thinking..as long as she doesnt act on them. (x still at caris's place, and I ♥ that girl. haha. was playing this really card game that got us both high, but it was rather true, for most of the questions we asked. long story, so only caris will understand. XP went to the park near white sands and we sat down at the same place as we did during the EOYs period when I was supposed to help her with her science and started talking and eating :D Memories, memories, spilling out private thoughts and worries, and it just felt good lying on the bench and staring at the trees that tower over us, listening to music. times like this, make me smile.  isnt the view nice?  monkeying! Caris dropped so many times before we managed to take this! poledance? not sexy enough! think we wont sleep early tonight. feel distinctly rested after not sleeping well for 3 nights and my peaceful sleep last night. at least there wont be the throbbing headache that I had for the past few days. (= on a random note though, caris and many others warnings ring in my ear as I think about ____. maybe they are right, and maybe I'm a fool for not heeding their advices..wont do anything wrong physically, but I fear that it is too late to withdraw emotionally. I'll just wait like a fool for my heart to break. but no matter what happens, you will see the smile on my face, no matter how I hurt inside, I will still smile. (= &I might pluck up my courage, and say hearts.
@ 11:57 AM
 hope everything stays as it will.
@ 11:38 AM
was thinking about competitve anger today, so here is a super long post. maybe? Competitive anger and the rising insult begins with an innocuous look leading to an escalating glare and a high-alert furrowed brow. Then words are spoken in anger and a subtle hate begins to boil. Actions follow. An middle finger stabs the air in rising insult. A palm becomes a fist. Shoulders tense in flight. Lines are tempted and crossed and one can never return emotional zero because the competitive urge must be filled with devastation and the rising insult only declines in explosion. The most dangerous sort of competitive anger and the rising insult is contempt. Contempt lives a quiet and insidious life — but more than blackened eye or bleeding throat — contempt invisibly rots you out from the inside. Contempt destroys families and careers and dreams. Contempt is unspoken, but never quiet. Contempt is ruthless, but always shy. Contempt is deadly when wielded in the name of those you claim to adore. Contempt is the most vicious killer of the precious and the beloved. true isnt it? "love your neighbour", but in today's context, I no longer know what they mean by love. Read another post that said that love is contempt. but yet. how can two such conlicting emotions, such complex webs interwine together, to be in conjuction? Isnt this what happens all the time in the world? I remember telling someone before that I want to be a monster, those that hide under the covers, those that hide under the bed and eats up the kids while they sleep. then, they needn't face the ugly world, that only grows uglier as they grow. they leave with beautiful memories of this world. their world without prejudice, without hurt, being coccooned and protected. the innocence in their eyes, taken over by a sort of weary fear as they grow up further..all these so apparent in the little ones. maybe we will be desansatised by the world, but in the soft center of our hearts, it is apparent that no one would or could forget the innocence of the young. "sometimes in the pursuit of own goals, we lose ourselves."-how true, how sincere.
Monday, November 26, 2007 @ 9:08 PM
They say friday the 13th is an unlucky day, but after this afternoon, I conclude that monday the 26th, is worst. cause it is 13 x 2, so twice the unluckiness I guess. morning past rather peacefully, with us slacking then playing monopoly while waiting for caris to come back from eds so that we can go settler's cafe, in specific, the katong branch, and I swear the website ought to be sued for misgiving of information. all the bus services that are stated there are not found anywhere near eunos station okay, such liars. and me and caris were walking to every busstop and walking up and down while the rest waited for us at someplace becoz XF didnt want to walk as her leg still hurt. thanks for those we called or smsed and tried to help us. even if it didnt really helped, it was sweet. (: ended at this kbox lookalike, sounds alike thing. fun. listening to those songs made me rather emo though. haha. someone was shedding tears, though she said that she cried coz she was COLD? haha. aint at home, so cant upload photos. but those lyrics make me think about _____. hahaha. cant help it lahs.! things happened after i had my shower..shant say anything. thanks matt for being my listening ear..just that..): shant type in foreign lang or using small miniscule words, coz someone asked me not to. i shall just say: Taylor Swift's - I'd lie,is what I am sorta thinking. if only you knew. you arent mine, but sometimes I just want you to be. bubbling cauldron of anger, and i swallow it down, cause i have no right to. you arent mine. i have no right to. and i dun think you will be mine ever.
@ 11:13 AM
 at the end of the day, alone is where I end. Irony, not?
Saturday, November 24, 2007 @ 9:52 PM
quoted from caris's blog. HELLO =D Geraldine's beside me, POSING. BIMBO :/ Geraldine: hng. or hmph. pot calling the kettle black, or in this case, caris calling the great and nice geraldine black! XD Me: TSK. It's Caris calling the bimbotic Geraldine bimbo :D -end- Okay anyway, she's staying over at my house till Wednesday. Haha. Are you jealous? I know you are. Awwww, don't be (x HAHA. yes, as stated above, I am staying at the horrid torturer's house. and I guess we will have fun. ♥ Wait. I am not guessing, I am SURE we will have fun, and we did, especially last night, when we all turned in at 2? thought carislau was saying repeatedly that she would sleep since 11. -.- HAHA. smsing elmo's world!(inside joke wahaha) uno, cheat, payday(which was nonsense)and cluedo. Not forgetting the gists of all girls sleepovers, we(mua,caris, lena and dorcas!) played Truthortruth. the Warped version of truth or dare. whahas. Kovan after church, and me and lena was on our way to Punggol, when caris said camp meeting ended. wth. 4 81s passed us by before she FINALLY turned up, though I think we would have grown dust, fungus, and god knows what by then. X= church was a surprise, netherless, cause I am suddenly awakened to the fact that a single decision of mine worries so many people. factually speaking though, I didnt even make a decision. surprising how one's thoughts affects those around her, which made me think the whole afternoon. so those that commented that I was in a bad mood, I am not. I am just thinking. (: thanks for the concern guys, but trust me on this, I know when, where to draw the line. girls school was MY choice, simply coz of trying to avoid BGRs. and since I made that decision that day, that year, it wasnt a rash decision, and I know what I am doing. thanks for the concern, friends we remain, but maybe, that, is as far as it goes. I am still rational enough to make a rational decision, so dont worry about me. (=
@ 1:42 PM
 Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but looking outward,in the same direction. <>
@ 1:24 PM
I dont know if you are reading this, but if you are, dont be too sad over that horrid slip of paper. it is just a gauge of your acedemic grades against the national cohort. but this is just a piece of paper,it isnt fair, you might have just lost the gist on that day, no, it isnt fair, not at all. dont cry dear, dont cry. hold your head up high, and go to the best school that will have you. It is the students that make the school. look to the next examinations, the Os. It is okay. not performing up to standard doesnt mean that you give up on yourself. there will be people who will jeer at you, but hold your head up high. look to what comes. I have faith in you, so dont give up.(: Got to someone's lj locked posts. HAHA..so sweeeett! I want a BF like that also! like wth. hahaha. if only I could quote, haha, I know for one that LYS will drool or something..hehex. sometimes the best assurances, are naught but lies. yet I'll hold my peace, cause what is in there, remains there. yet sometimes. I want to say it all out, all to you, so that you will understand what I mean. maybe then, will it start to scab over, and will faith slowly diffuse. 'Grats to all who scored well for PSLE, and those who didnt, there is always Os. dont give up yet, cause no one will unless you take the first step. Especially to the exco of '07, be leaders in Your own way, whereever you decide to go, cause leading with a title, with authority,will never beat leading by influence. I have faith in you all. all the best. show what you are capable of, show your potentials. it is there. I assure you, your seniors, us, choose you all, cause we see it there. the next step is yours. coral gave you the first training, it is now up to you, to decide how you are going to use it. goodluck my dears. and may the Lord be with you in your every footstep and decision.(=
Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 11:03 AM
 freedom;dont even think.
@ 10:17 AM
zomg. but this year's PSLE top scorer scored 294. she must be some sort of genius. elite. seriously. and no prizes to guess where she would end up. I dont expect her to be at Cedar, that's for sure. And am I glad that she isnt my sister/cousin or anything. I mean I would be proud of her, and be happy for her, but I will probby be writing my suicide note, and be preparing to jump down the window already, to escape the embarrassment and shame for getting only 2__ only a year back. ohh. what an idiot I am. ): think we will be visiting my little ermei soon: and I am missing my 6/3 people. ): AND while I am at it, i miss coral. and I miss cedar too. I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL! hehe. yeahyeah! el meeting! oh. I havent sent out the reminders yet. -note to self: IMPORTANT! getting randomer. I WANT MY JIAHUI! where is my jiahui? i miss you dear. where's our library date! the only one I can read with without feeling guilty. (: sighs. sometimes. when you tell yourself, it's enough, you have to believe it. how do you expect me to draw a line between need and want? if you want a clue of my mood: I am blasting Boyfriend now. ):
Thursday, November 22, 2007 @ 1:53 PM
been oddly weary. considering it's been the hols, and I havent been mugging much or anything. mhms. food for thought. but is the educational system as perfect as it seems? is it fair for those who cant catch up to get pushed to the side? today's the day PSLE results are released, and I know of people who get 267, and yet at the same time, people who get 170; even unable to qualify for a decent normal course. and I look at my brother, whose results fluctuates as often as the stock market does. was arguing this with my mom over lunch, and I conclude: only the best survives. and you either survive, or you float with the current. ): on a lighthearted note though, have been blogsurfing again, and I think it is soo amusing how cedardebater and cedardebator are talking on samuel's blog. haha. I think I have a good idea who is cedardebator. but who the hell is cedatdebater? cant they read and NOT tag..hahaha..XP or while you are at it, tag your name! problem with internet anonymity. tsktsk. cleared my entire system, and ohwells. they say curiousity kills the cat, I say curiousity kills the comp. poor comp! shant type anymore. cause my brain's trying to organise its thoughts so that it isnt floating around, like butterflies in the field. it's there, yet you dare not touch it, or hold it too tight, in case it floats away. vexation. 0:  true ornot? you decide.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007 @ 12:15 PM
 like a puzzle it fitted. until all dropped apart.
@ 12:08 PM
life's been a bore lately. for me, and if what I am hearing are any facts, so is everybody else. hahaha. there is seriously no balance for a student's life. either we are working out butts, and whatever you can think of, off. or we have so much free time on our hands, we are rotting away at home. ohwells. cold war's now all MY fault it seems. whatever. as if I give a damn. clicking around the featured articles on Yahoo is quite amusing. was reading this article. and I think my eyes were getting wider while I tried not to laugh.. http://dating.personals.yahoo.com/singles/datingtips/51400/is-she-attracted;_ylc=X3oDMTFpMTRwMnR0BF9TAzI3MTYxNDkEc2VjA2ZwX3RvZGF5BHNsawNpcy1zaGUtYXR0cmFjdGVkBHp6A2Fi guys ought NOT read this. this is so freaking untrue! they make all ladies sound like nymphomaniacs. -.- rofl! how's the holiday homeworks coming along? haha. someone from 1H! go make a homework list so I can check what I have done against it! haha. scatterbrained me. haha. I-Portal is useless lah! last term got the list on it, this time dont have! ):
Tuesday, November 20, 2007 @ 5:12 PM
This is going to be a seriously random post. do not read if you are someone who base life on facts. I know many say that my posts are long winded, and hard to read. to them, my reply is simple.press the little red x at the top. and dont read. no one's going to hold a knife to your throat and force you, not am I going to ask for review. so, shut up. what happened to freedom of speech? and yes, you can all be paranoid fools, and think I am talking about you. go ahead. Is it that hard for you to say three very simple words? "I am sorry"? they say you should forgive and forget. but sorry. unless you admit you are at fault. and you think you should apologise, no way. I will just happily not open my mouth at home. fine mom. fine dad. fine by me. someone flipped my wrist up today, and she was shock. like wth. I dont care. scars? blood? big deal. I dont care. I dont give a damn. on a nicer note: oh. you can actually move your mouse over this. damn cool! haha. like some graph! haha. click the attentive builder, and you will get my breakdown. but go and do the quiz. it is quite accurate..for me lahs. (:
@ 12:19 PM
 blurred. nothing needs be clear. no more.
@ 12:02 PM
been miaing in blogger. not that I have nothing to type. Just that I dunno where to start. however, SOMEONE -cough- has been harrassing me online to post, so since I am here, and I am stuck with the stupid yi lun wen, might as well post. urgh. sunday church was boringly average. Had SF picnic; and instructions given were amusing. "Go to macs, look at the sea, and turn left 400m." mhms. informative, except for the fact that I have no idea how long is 1m judging by my footsteps? Dog and bone was fun, and running on a regular basis helps with the balance on the sand? (trying to rub salt into some's wounds. XP) then the weather took a turn for the bad, and who popped up? Hanwei just decided to cruise by. wahahas. 1, 2, 3, BYEBYE! haha. but of course, we didnt go back with them, deciding to cycle instead. wrong choice! Unfortunate events happened. Rained cats and dogs. urgh. haha. we all got wet, drenched. the weather was cold, but the warmth of friendship was clearly felt. (: I love my lovelies.<33 monday EL meeting for cny performance. haha. pathetic. haha. just the 5 of us. ohwells. at least we have the script now. funny, but everytime we sec1s or myabe 2s get together, we can twist any story to be funny, yet sensible. hahaha. yeah! now for the part about acting out! and I realised that in the course of discussion, we all know what problems we as a cca are facing..I am sure whoever gets to be in exco from our batch will be great. (: what can I say, but I am proud to be in Eldds? Coz with mates as such, you can never go wrong. (: ohwells. atishoo. am sick again. argh. haha. had a major argument with my parents. all over a news article. sometimes, urgh, i think they think the law is everything. and they think that I am some wild idiot who doesnt know when to stop, or even.. urgh whatever. what trust. it's all fake. it's the darling son that is the kind soul. the idiot daughter is nothing. nothing, heartless you say? well, my character. take whatever I am doing now as hypocrisy, as if I give a damn. no credit. nothing. whatever. uselessness is the defination for me. fine. just fine.
Saturday, November 17, 2007 @ 6:20 PM
 obession with rainbows.(:
@ 6:05 PM
Just got back from Caris's. (: made ____ a _____ HAHA. church peeps will know when you see someone carrying a huge YELLOW board tomorrow. HAHA. evil caris. evil constance. turns out I am an object of discussion ah? I just realised that teen's are filled with angst. like I have been blog surfing, and I always see posts that scream angsty teen! hahaha. like I am not one, but ohwells. interesting phenomenon, not? (X I am so ultra random posting, just coz Caris says she is sick of seeing the color pencil picture.. Now I hear my mom and dad and me and my bro shouting across rooms deciding where to eat. haha. supposed to go grandma's, but I am not complaining. my head hurts as it is. not helping when I have to entertain little ones. nono, not at all . (: I am so childish today. Entertaining article: http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20071116/od_afp/britainliaroffbeat_071116093714 ridiculous claims. HAHA. this was what made me start laughing at the screen. Competitors have five minutes to tell the biggest fib without the aid of props. Politicians and lawyers are barred from entering as they are judged to be too skilled at telling porkies. and school's english excerises treats us like p1 trying out grammar for the first time. -.-
Thursday, November 15, 2007 @ 11:05 AM
 the brighteness doesnt hide the dark
@ 10:53 AM
mhms. mhms. mhms. this has been my new favourite word, besides the ofcourse, haha. as stated by is.(: hahaha. ok. weirdness. mhms. maths tution homework bores me to death. such that I have been putting it off again and again. which explains tution on saturday and me still stuck at question25, out of the 50 I have to finish. danng. I hate maths, did you see that Sherilyn! haha. profits and losses. nothing to do with me. I am not going to do buisness when I grow up, I swear, cause figures put me to sleep. language is more my cup of tea. haha. I seriously think that I am a weird person. was listening to when you are gone when I started slamming the lyrics. maybe I have come to associate that song with her blog, and wells, the whole song just doesnt sound logical to me. but since it has a nice ring to it, I shall just put it on my playlist. hehex. shopping later. ahhh! I am so gonna drag my mom to Borders after she is done destroying my brain from repeated entrances into fitting rooms. wont it be great if you could wear fbts anyway and everywhere, and you can also wear comfy big t-shirts when you are at that? sighs. yes, I know I am weird, I dont like tightfitting t-shirts, I dont like skirts. eee. it's so hard to move freely in them! grrr. hahaha. hope my mom doesnt say: girl. let's go to the cosmectic department, I wil positively scream, wherever we are. XP I HATE SHOPPING WHEN I AM EXPECTED TO BUY SOMETHING!! ohwells. once a year. bear with it g.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @ 8:54 PM
 
@ 8:29 PM
I am back again. day's been boringly average. good or bad? going shopping with mom tomorrow. urgh. forced to the fitting room agains! haha. people who know we knows I am not a big fan on clothes and trying clothes. in lena's words: geraldine doesnt doll does she? no I dont, cause I aint one. I am a real alive living human who can think, even though I dont appear to normally use it. was reading Island Voices after finishing To kill a mocking bird. yeah man. kill me. I am so gonna flunk lit next year. mean like to kill a mocking bird is how about the racism of that time, the biasedness of the white against the black. i so dont need to know all these. it just makes my world one shade greyer. not something i need. ): Island voices? is just AS bad. it makes my world even duller. that's why they say as you grow up, the world changes. yeah it does, it's all in the head. I have absolutely no idea what I am typing. It's just the random flow of thought. I might want to type something else. but it's not very readable on blog,so, Jap.(: 私はちょうど。実現した。私は。愛する。今までのところでは、私はほしくない。 安全がありなさい貴重。私は何でもしかし言わない。 私が考えているものを知っているか。 and it isnt chinese! so dont read it as chinese. hehex. (: what say you matt? no french nvm loh. i use jap. hohoho.
@ 11:37 AM
 under my umbrella, ellaella
@ 11:00 AM
back from reunion chalet '07 with 6.3, my lovees.(: the first night was a diaster. hahaha. ohwells, the games themselves were unrealistic. a bunch of overactive thirteens sitting down and playing pass the parcel with only one layer wrapped? hahaha. getting them to sit down was a horror in itself untold. hahaha. me and rach got a sore throat while kellie(e main organiser) was already what? sobbing or something. hehex. ended up I was like: okay. I give up, let's all have free and easy.(: everyone was so happy to hear that. X= i mean, look at kellie's dress, and she was tottering on HIGH HEELS within the chalet itself. ehs. seriously NOT realistic. haha. and I doubted she could wear the high heels properly.(X
had a lot of funny talks..(: watched Heroes, and finished 3bottles of softdrinks. we so rock. supposedly going to sleep when rachel had a not sugar rush sugar rush, and the girls played truth in the room. didnt sleep anyway, what's with marshmellows flying into the room and what nots so some of us watched tv, and the rest, when most of everyone went to sleep, we went out and chitchatted. haha. fed a cat with tuna that kell meant to be breakfast. hehe. so scared she come out and scream at us.XP so, LYS, rach, liying, me, ben,cliff, chankai sat outside and chatted until 1-2 plus? then we moved to the guys room, which stank, cause they were playing with lighter and insect repllent. dun get what i mean? it's FLAMMABLE. tsktsk. yakyakyak in the room, and laughed ourselves silly.(: bonding..what kell wanted us to do, yet we were doing it by talking..and when she was sleeping/: irony! didnt sleep the whole night at all! whoa! sunrise at 4:30. and waited for 2hours! am so surprised how some never walked in the beach after 9, and never seen stars or the sunrise. haha. sighs lahs! get out of the house more often!
breakfasted on macs. couldnt stand how chankai so si wen eats his food, so LYS stepped in. end result..ohh. the white white toppings are smashed up hashbrowns. hehe(:  slacked the whole day through, we kept sleeping. more things happened. but since not nice stuff, shant type, and I am just toooo lazy to.(: next year ar! and no bbq i dun want turn up ar! goodluck people. whether in making teachers scream(ben and cliff), netball(LYS), ahemahem(sly), being horny in a boys school(CCK), all the best people. we all grew up in a year, and yes. let the bond stay as strong as it was, when we were in a class.(: big girls dont cry..little girls do.(X
Monday, November 12, 2007 @ 4:45 PM
 & goodbye my friend.
@ 4:41 PM
dont ever ever ever try to lug school books by yourself on an empty stomach, in the rain without an umbrella, and without anyone else besides yourself. chalet later. weirdly riled up. maybe's the forum, but there's something else, just below the surface. I come to dread seeing you face to face. too many choices, too many things, too little time. hold me close, and tell me nothing's wrong. cause I am so tired I want to sleep forever. It's all fake cant you tell? all fake.
Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 4:00 PM
contrary to what many people who saw me today thinks, my mood's far from good. it's even far from average. it's in the dumps, to put it nicely. ¬hing was improved by my parents, or even the idiot I have for a younger brother. Certainly not when I want some peace and quiet to sort out my thoughts. nono, geraldine cant have that. nono. that's how deprived I am now, great. just fantastic. All I want now is to scream and claw, and destroy whatever comes my way. but no. I cant. I am so tempted to use vulgarities to express myself, cause I am so pent up inside. It's just too much for me. anger. irony when we just discussed it during bs today. irony. hahaha. so I'm just gonna play disappear again. i dont care anymore. And if I never come back again, then goodbye. coz I have lost all thought of keeping myself safe. coz I dont give a damn, not anymore. I know THEY will be happy without me. with the all so perfect son, who scores failing grades, acts like the whole world owns him, and is an immature idiotic freak who cant talk with normal tones. ohno. it's the idiot daughter they all hate dont they? so let the blood flow freely, and see if it ever dries. will fight my way out of this mad house I call home, cause I want to throw down the placid front of obedience and calmness down. see my cycnical and evil nature mom, I am not an angel.
Saturday, November 10, 2007 @ 11:24 PM
got tagged by enen baobao.(: A: Fun to be around with B: Loves to make people laugh C: Really fall in love with D: Easy to fall in love with E: Have beautiful eyes F: People get wild and crazy to adore you G: Dont like people to tell you what to do H: Is a great dancer I: Love to laugh J: Easy to have fun with K: Really silly L: One of the most romantic people M: Make people laugh N: Good bf/gf O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with P: Popular with all types of people Q: A hypocrite R: Can kick your ass S: Lives life for fun T: Great Kisser U: Gets blamed for everything V: Not judgmental W: Very broad minded X: Drop dead gorgeous Y: Loved by everybody Z: Lives life for fun My name(: G: Dont like people to tell you what to do - haha. yeahman. this is MY life. E: Have beautiful eyes - errr..? R: Can kick your ass - haha. so yes dont mess with me A: Fun to be around with - haha? L: One of the most romantic people - NO! i am realistic! D: Easy to fall in love with - haha. how would I know! doubt so, I nag alot.XP I: Love to laugh - yesyes. highness! N: good bf/gf - 0.0 E: Have beautiful eyes - this again?!
@ 11:07 PM
 locked in the jail that's my thoughts
@ 5:21 PM
finished my chinese hol hw, at least, one of the two (_ahem_) yi lun wens, an absolute horror I can assure you. went blog surffing, checked the date and time, put two and two together, and started smiling to myself, yes, an absolute retard act, but ohwells.(: got this from the blog I was reading, Matt would probby find it familiar..hehe.. thought it was rather amusing.. Man have a clear conscience because it's never used. A man with Half Brain is Gifted Men don't mind their own business because they have No mind & no Business The thinnest book in the world is; What Men Know About Women. And the same old sayings. 10 things men know about women. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. They got boobs. I am not saying that it is always true, mean, I know some nice guys, who are really nice friends to have. take note of the word friends ah, and dont start spamming my board. It happens all too often for my liking. But you gotta admit, sometime's it applies, especially for those big time jerks..X= & I realised, sometimes I tell myself that it's enough, but then, enough's never enough, isit? Just got home from grandma's and well, was subjected to some what I would like be call intense entertainment-entertaining my cousins. well. hard work. seriously. Not in the mood for nice friendly words..mood's rather turblent as a matter of fact, not a rarity these days I suppose, as compared to last year? weird, seeing as I was subjected to more stress, especially for PSLE.yet thing's been piling up nowadays, and sometimes it makes me feel like grabbing whatever's offered to me without thinking, without looking, without caring. but it isnt right. and I know that. It isnt the right thing to do. but how long is morals going to rein me back? how long more before it breaks its banks? desperate, I am, for what? I dont know now. I steer clear of reading M and N's blogs, cause those words, they remind me of just too much. I see through them, for what they are, lies and deceit, yet I can do naught but sit back and look. ____ was right, all we can do is sit back and wait for the end, to sit like sitting ducks, to be helpless in whatever fate's gonna throw in our direction. but how long more I ask. &no-one's gonna give me the answer. I hold back the tears, and clench my fist to wait for what denies me. I just want someone to lean on. no. be strong. there's no way anyone would do that, for you.
Friday, November 9, 2007 @ 5:39 PM
 Et je biseaute l'aide vous aimant
@ 5:22 PM
a picture carries a thousand words. not in a very good mood, in fact, whoever talks to me better watch out in case I start lashing out. so, since I am not going to post in red french words..  WE WANT OUR LUNCH! I like this quiz, so.. What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?
@ 4:20 AM
 can you not tell?
@ 4:10 AM
Now the time is currently 4.10am. and I am the only one online on my list, since Os are like over, and no one's mugging overnight. so. why am I online at this unearthly hour? cause I dropped like a sack at 9:00am, even though I kept sleeping yesterday in Batam, like on the bus, in the room, on the ferry and all. XP yeah man. turning into one pig that's for sure. ok. back to the topic. Why am I online at such an unearthly hour! ok. the thing was, I suddenly woke up at 3:02am,and I saw 10 msgs waiting for my attention. one of them was asking me to print something, so here I am. the other few, all needed immediate replies, and one of them requires me to be awake to deal with it. coffee from the kitchen, and here I am. omggg. my sleep!! zzz. Miss Liu, You had BETTER appreciate this girl. I am so sacraficing my sleep!! so..Batam was fun, but we didnt had much activities, since the only purpose we are there is to rackee for next year's church family camp. people, cross your fingers and hope that we get the golden view hotel, it really is wonderful, as compared to the novotel one. now, the printer's stopped whirring away, so I shall stop and drop dead again.(: Et je me suis ennuyé de toi ainsi.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007 @ 11:11 AM
Instructions 1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint. 2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours. 3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged. 4. Start your post with; I have been tagged! Favourites Favourite Color: black Favourite Food: pig hearts food! hehex. too many lars Favourite Movie: secret & Gameplan! Favourite Sport: eh, swimming? Favourite Day of the Week: erms..any day when there is debate training.:D Favourite Season: winter. snow!Favourite Ice Cream: chocolate! (: Currents Current Mood: super duper bored. Current Clothes: shirt and shorts. Current Desktop: sunset Current Time: 11:14 Current Surroundings: eh, bedroom? Current Annoyances: boreddd Current Thoughts: I want to burn my holiday homework Firsts First Best Friend: hahaha. Valerie! Concidentally, we are in the same tution center, before I quit last week.(X First Crush: when I was in p5? caris was early! Kindergarden, OMGG! First Movie: Bruce Allmighty with Miss Choy (: First Lie: HAHA. cant remember! First Music: My grandfather's clock. Last Drink: plainwater Last Car Ride: yesterday Last Crush: HAHA. shhh..bu neng shuo de mi mi! Last Phone Call:Dad. Have you packed this, packed that. -.- Last CD Played: I dun play cds. it is all in my com. Have you evers? Have you ever dated one of your best friend: haha. yeah..pretty much. Have you ever broken the law : caris got this right! I jaywalk everyday when there's school!Have you ever been arrested?: By my teacher for sinking socks? Have you ever been on TV: No. haha. I dont like to be in the limelight. XD Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: I havent even kissed someone I KNOW. Random 5 things you are good at: sleeping slacking being mental laughing being dao - what most people say when I dont smile! not true though.XP 4 things you've done today: ate brekkie, played the piano, use the com, pack my stuff, did hol hw. 3 things you can hear right now: the music I am playing the keys on the keyboard clacking myself breathing 5 People to tag: shall not be evil. whoever's bored. do it.
@ 9:36 AM
I am supposed to be packing up for the trip later. so wth am I doing here I also dunno. Cause I am freaking bbbbooorreeedd! like zomg(picked this up from charmaine/:)! okay. at least I have the trip later to look forward to. So I shant complain. No, since I am a sweet little one(sees everyone vomitting), ok, not sweet, but still in the okay range, and not as conz says, an evil student. X= haha. what a long way to bring out a simple sentence. ohwells. this is what boredom does to your mind. poor mind. either being totally stressed out by exams, or totally slacked out by nonsense as blogging. (oops!) so now I am staring at my holiday homework, and thinking how stupid it is to be even having them, and on another window is some instructions for maths homework that being the maths iddy(again, from charmaine) I can understand at all! ok. be honest. I can understand, butbut, I am just too lazy to start on it. dannng! OKAY. miss, stop complaining. let's think of good things.(even if they happen once in a blue moon) (brain goes into gear..brrrbrrrbrrr) none. fantastic. -sulks.- damn holiday homework. let's go burn down the school shall we? but cannot leh. arson! sighs. what to do? go get those stuff done.): HAHA. and i realised one thing, most people cant understand french! so I shall blog emo stuff in french then. hehex.(X Tant de lumières lumineuses, ils moulent une ombre est-ce que mais je peux parler ?Le puits est lui arrangement dur que je suis la vie inachevée d'A qui est ainsi exiger j'obtiens l'amour tellement faible d'A qui est ainsi exiger je ne peux pas parler Je t'aime
Tuesday, November 6, 2007 @ 10:03 PM
 build your hopes on sandcastles in the air. so that when they disappear,you dont feel a thing.
@ 9:49 PM
I AM GOING TO BATAM TOMORROW!! (((: yeah!now back to earth. went out with the love-extended family today. namely enrica: er'mei isabel: xiao'mei sherilyn: niece. bel's daughter. haha.went to plaza singapura, watched the gamplan,so amusing. shopped around, and burnt a hole in my pocket. haha. I want to go borders!! someone ask me out! and I need to finish my hol hw! someone ask me out for that too. sighs. talked on the way back with Enrica since I decided to go Sengkang and take bus instead. hahaha. someone wants to make life hard for some next year hor. hehex. we were never guai to begin with, so how can we rebel my dear? apparently she is still sore about that matter. as a matter of fact, i am too, but I accept that it is for the best. still stings alittle though)x Things cant always go my way, but it stings, when most of the people who got in are those who didnt go through what we did. X= not anyone to question the way things work out at Cedar. shall just enjoy my years there..but still. ohwells. at least I had a chance to laugh myself silly at situational test, and a chance to express myself honestly and had my comments taken note of during interview. it's enough geraldine. it's enough. yet if i am true to myself ; sometime enough just isnt enough. especially when the people who get chosen, some are...shant say anything since I am not fit enough to.(X rambles and rambles. I miss you. xoxo can mean hugs and kisses. but at the same time the 'x' can be do not enter. which do I take to belive, when hopes are crushed, spirits are dampened, and tears are shed? parfois quand la haine devient trop pour toi, vous bouteille juste il vers le haut. la douleur place dedans, et je ne pleure pas. Et c'est massacre je, me déchirant lentement intérieur combien de temps je peux le prendre que je ne sais pas. Soutenez la douleur, et roulez avec les poinçons. Je t'ai donné le couteau, me tue maintenant.causez qui est tout que je suis bon pour. pour être votre football humain
@ 8:23 PM
If only it were so simple, to cruise through life smelling roses; but the obstacles blacken the countryside, and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots. Dreams sustain us through the madness; goals give a finish line to our race. Yet they change with every turn, around every wall, and remain elusive throughout the quest. Mistakes are made, and regrets our luggage; we will drag them with us to slow us down. The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow usto glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends. Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us. Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us. The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths, yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness. There are others trying to race to the end; occasionally, we bump into one or two. The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness. Alone is not a bad way to be; it clears your head and focuses you on the journey. Cherish the short intervals during the quest you have with others, but be prepared to walk alone in the darkness. |
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