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Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @ 9:39 PM
"a bad day, for all" - quote, cassbuddy, my deardear class monitress. we had multiple free periods today, coz the teachers are on course, learning on how to tolerated all with a smile until the period ended, snapped at someone, then went to the toilet, where I had a smashing wall with fist fun. now my hand feels numb, clever ehs? blueblacks at the knuckles, self mutilation. rawrs. then returned back to class, promptly daoed people, blasted mp3(free period), and 10mins later, back to work. debate session..cool enough. someone hates taugay, someone giggles at the word pudding..haha..reintro ourselves to the sec1s, the old plus the new. fun observing them and trying to think what they would be. questioning loyalties, and remiscing. ahh, not that I would ever admit that I would miss the sec4s. hehs. the consequence, I am not done with my case, I have a pile of hw waiting for me, my right hand feels numb with the tinge of pain, I am having a headache, and rawrs. I am in a super foul mood, now.
Monday, January 28, 2008 @ 7:56 PM
See her walking alone in this city of heartache and stone she finds her way down to where she once found all her dreams she didn't understand why something she'd given her heart to could die but, that's just the way it works out they say it's alright She's coming back down this carousel ride has stopped spinning round she wants to say she's sorry and stay but it's too late now this carousel ride has shut down Fingertips trace the lines pens and papers recall the good times but, clocks they do run and change what's been done say goodbye sunday was nice and sweet, got my prezzies from the churchies. hehs. (: thanks! they found the smiley thingy I wanted. hehs. (: thought they would have forgotten and told caris as much. haha, find that all too often I have so little faith in people around me. issue with mal again today that made her remind me as much, ahh. bad habit. ought to change it soon. rawrs. had piano "lessons" with Esther & Hanwei after that. Hanwei popped up from nowhere, literally. hahah. total meanie to me. and HAOJIE ALWAYS ALSO BULLY ME ONE! actually i am the one doing the bulying, but close one eye lah, i stand next to him like smurf like that, as some evil person commented. hmphs. interval training today almost took my life. rawrs. tomorrow one more, i think i will just beg miss leong to LET ME OFF, RAWR. /: only me and bel from aesthethics in our group, the rest all trackers, bballers and vballers. zhen de shi hen can. ): nvm, i will have nicer muscles after that. sighs /: thin comfort indeed. so funny, when we were doing warmdowns, we were singing what?! Barney, Elmo, Little green frog, blablabla and CEDAR SOLID! woots! hahha. craziness. so deprived of our childhoods. XP debate meeting after school screwed my brains. sorrae guys we werent there to help look okay! urgent lahs. (: elitism..sigh, weird how things change when you have to adopt another view, for more points. learnt alot though, and certainly laughed alot. Joy is probby brain dead and Estee is the only one with functioning brains I guess. oh! and Mr Leng is such an easy teacher to bully. hehs.
Friday, January 25, 2008 @ 10:52 PM
if this is the way you want it, what can I say?
@ 5:29 PM
am feeling pretty pissed off at the moment. pure angst. pure pain, the throbbing kind that makes you want to cry, but the tears are all clogged up. you want to lash out at them, but you know deep down, that it aint just their fault. the worst kinda feeling. wish like venting it out, since they were the cause of it all, but a logical part holds back, cautions, and as always, in the end, it wins. I hate this. after this is over, I am never going to do anything like that. spare me all the pain. debate "orientation". so fun okay! was damn high or at least, I looked the part. the sec1s are nice. 2 left, pathethic, will have to wait for second intake then. I demand photos. hear it, hear it. esteepang! chatting with Joy online released a huge load of tension off me. yes, some fights, arent worth fighting, but the fights that ought to be fought, I have no strength to fight too. tired, so tired, so tired.
Thursday, January 24, 2008 @ 11:10 PM
i'm not the type to get my heart broken i'm not the type to get upset and cry cause i never leave my heart open never hurts me to say goodbye relationships don't get deep to me never got the whole in love thing and someone can say they love me truely but at the time it didn't mean a thing my mind is gone, i'm spinning round and deep inside, my tears i'll drown i'm losing grip, what's happening i stray from love, this is how i feel this time was different felt like, i was just a victim and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life now i'm, in this condition and i've, got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart but no matter what you'll never see me cry did it happen when we first kissed cause it's hurting me to let it go maybe cause we spent so much time and i know that it's no more i shoulda never let you hold me baby maybe why i'm sad to see us apart i didn't give to you on purpose gotta figure out how you stole my heart taking of O levels results today. okay. the way my class behaved today, it were as if I was the one taking MY results, but no, I have just recovered from the shock of PSLE, thanks, but I am not that eager to grow up yet. graduating batch of 07 came back, popped in classrooms to wave at the teachers and badger for results. "oh you have a single digit result" "okay, leaning towards the double digits or not?!" - kiasuness, take result at 2, reach school at 7? some actually cried BEFORE taking results. &my very excited class was bullying Mr Leng during last period today. HAHAH. atoms and molecules theory bores me, terribly, but at least, I understand. craziness of class, the highness of everyone, shouting goodluck as a class at the passing sec4s and having your greeting replied. the bluegrey family, I love. the little green frog is soon turning into our class song, really. we keep singing it at random times. and due to the sec4s good result, we have halfday tomorrow, but I aint going anywhere, we have debate. haha. (: my debate seniors did really well, single digits, really pretty ones. saw people I know crying in the hall, so extreme, jumping with joy or sobbing bitterly. felt like such an intruder as I stood there watching them. overall performance was good, but individual achievements..? heh. so kaypoh lah us all, stand outside the hall when it is entirely none of our business, but it motivated me to study, so yeah. (= go cedar you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind, go cedar! go cedar! - hah. i love this cheer. the cedar family, blue, grey and tie! uniquely, us. off to mug (: feeling odd. should start an abstainence from talking to people I very well shouldnt. irony, how some are pleased with double digits that are wayyy not acceptable, and cedarians cry at what? 4 marks?! HAHA
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 @ 7:43 PM
never say I love you, when you dont really care. never talk about feelings, it they arent really there. never hold my hand, if you are going to break my heart never say you are going to, if you dont plan to start. never look into my eyes, if you are going to lie. never say hello, if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever, then say you will try. never make a promise, if it is going to be broken, and life to die. despite all, what can I say to bar you from inside? school - average. after school - weirdly tight and tensed. I so hate last minute stuff, thanks lots man. rawrs. study skills workshop today, and I must say, my studyskill results are weird- am primarily a kenestic and secondary visual learner. nothing to weird about the kenestic part, more on the visual part. thought since I was a debater who processed most stuff by hearing, would be a auditory learner, well, I thought wrong then. &I honestly am going to use the note taking method, honest! piang for rehersals after school, sweaty and smelly, eww. think Mr Sng has a really bad impression of me now, geez. not a nice thing to be called by name by your sci and maths teacher when you are in bad need of the key to AS1. ought to have paid more attention in class, damnit. Now I know my rep's ruined, heh. who ask them so boring! oops. XP nice doesnt equal entertaining! rehersals, only one sentence, what could went wrong, did. put in our best efforts though, great job. but we really have to get together and practise, and do something about those damn mikes. rawrs. (= the sec1s have creepy tendecies. hope they wont be as we get to know them better though. sighs. I am sleepy. someone, smack me. &I want you here. Just treat me as a younger sister, that's enough. step back gerald, step back.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 @ 8:53 PM
 yeah there is only one way ; the cedar way.
@ 8:33 PM
haha. school today was super boring. superbly so. me and yannah are so mad, truly! we kept laughing today in school. heh. laugh at nothing. she laugh at me laughing who was laughing at her laughing. loves. =)  SUPER-YANNY to the poking of geraldine's ribs.(X "&running to the toilet in our shorts, without tie and behaving like secret agents spying out for teachers." quoted, bel. haha. the super bad examples to the sec1s. heh. improper attire, according to Mr Gabriel who decided to pop in. lols. was super random to the point of talking about old cheers. haha. omgg lah. so fan jian. last time got platform to cheer no one want to cheer, now no more platform le cai come and miss the old cheers! haha. The Little Green Frog and Linger.. haha. we wanted to shout to the sec1s having PSGM, SEC1, KARMAMA! haha. we didnt though. XP  we blew the remaining ballons after we were done, and everything burst. even those that didnt, did in the end cause enrica "stabbed" it with poor tianqi's pen. after we left something extremely amusing happened. hahaha. dont worry guys, I wasnt angry. (= am so pissed at you. what is it with the blowing hot and cold? it is my turn man. no one plays around like that with geraldine. not even you. if I have to admit it, I sorta miss it. but heck.
Monday, January 21, 2008 @ 8:59 PM
shocking to say in the least, the ways a person can have her mind pulled in a dozen directions. was chatting and was struck by the realisation that a person can have so many identity. socially shaped? Is that all there is to all these identities? which one do I actually identify myself with? so many questions, unanswered, and will never be. school was a N16 movie today. well and truly. really, the way we can change in class. screen, at the back. Xinhui holds champions, currently. lol. had SELC on cyber bullying today, many thoughts on it, but none of it positive. damn. cant we just stick back to "developing leadership", hmms? Sec1s had their spotcheck today, and many people were asked to stand. deepa's take on them: me: aiyo, skirt so long still get punish ah? deepa: aiya, what do you know. you see that teacher there? she is saying "this is not a convent, why is your skirt so long!" HAHAHA. as if the school would bother about long skirts, they all want us to wear skirt that comes to our ankles if possible. hehs.why would they such a thing? I can only assume that our dear sec1s this year are pretty much vain, and dont cut nails? haha. (X saw this couple after school, and there was a cedarian. in her uniform, in full view of pratically the whole cedar community after dismissal. I seriously detest people dating in their uniform. like can you do it somewhere else?! and can you NOT do it in your school uni and spoil your school's rep?! like WTH. I dont like this business. was giving the girl a glare when me and conz walked past. tsktsk. was so tempted to bring a teacher out from school. RAWRS. Geog today was chao amusing. studying world population and somehow or other "girls? how many of you need a guy to survive?" - no one raised up their hands. what does this show you? the females of today, specifically s'pore, dont need a guy okay! HAHA. all the feminists. :D poor jap ladies example, the way they wait on their husbands. the guy needs a maid, now a wife. haha. damn irritating when you know how sexist the world is, lols. The world so needs a campaign against sexism, rawrs. haha. butbutbut do you know? the ration of females to males are 60:40 okay! shows girls are more resilient,(I am acting on a warped theory here.) hehe. at least, since I am looking at the sperms thingy, what with the X and Y hormones, could never remember those. (X however, apparently Xinhui and Yannah and Isabel need a guy to survive, like WHY?! you can work you can feed yourself you can walk you can talk you can have equal carrer opportunities, so why oh why do you need to rely on a guy? heh. Matt is so going to have something to say about this. heh. nono, dont get me wrong, what I am trying to say is..why cant guys rely on the ladies as well? I would prefer mutual..if you get what I mean. ah. actually, it is so whatever. HAHA. not in a mood for pretty much anything, but maths is calling./: at least I have hamham to cheer me up. (: he recognises my hand now, and climbs up after sniffing it for awhile. (: eating out of my hand already, and sits on my lap to sleep while I change its bedding, cuteeee! (X I am crazy bout that little rascal. (X
Sunday, January 20, 2008 @ 8:37 PM
life. now. period.
@ 8:08 PM
church. so glad I didnt give it a miss even though I was dying from the fatigue. the bi-product of not enough sleep I guess, maybe the formula can go something like: fatigue is represented by y human is represented by k amt of sleep is represented by x since inverse proportion is Y= k / x the fatigue level of a human is inversely proportionate to the amount of sleep one has. agree? today's sermon and worship struck a chord in me, reminded me something so vital, so close, that I am surprised that I even had to be reminded. what a fool I have been, for such a longlong time. been living life, for the sake of living it. so empty inside, for such a long time. a year, perhaps. delved under illusions, frantic prayers, then the slowly closing of the heart. Lord I am coming back to the heart of worship, where it is all about you, all about you. been highly cynical recently, oddly. the thoughts that pops up into my mind all seem to be faintly mocking, with a vague sense of disbelieve. no longer able to trust, so easily, so without questions, so doubtless. I miss my innocence. I really do. so torn apart, the tension is running high. am so pissed and furstrated, and my sounding board's been acting weirdly recently too. heck. ohgod, I hate life. I need a remedy, now. hell. why dont I get everything in life running as it should?
Saturday, January 19, 2008 @ 12:00 PM
This appeared on our board 3days in a row already. How to seduce a guy. 1) Bat your eyelashes 2) Lick your (hopefully sexaye) lips 3) flick your hair 4) Do ALL at the same time! HAHAHA. do it infront of the mirror, and you can just laugh until you faint. single sexed schools power man, I dont think you get to see it at say, Coral? haha. (: these are the moments I live for, seriously. school has been seriously packing it in, and I am pretty much flattened out, coz of the fact that I slack alot,alot. friday was the worst day, with me packing mostly everything in it, courtesy to my newly arranged, and very messy timetable. I almost died. talked to belbel when I came home, and was damn amused when she started laughing when I told her I just finished changing ham's sandbathe and played with it. apparently, she cant imagine me mothering a hamster. -.-! went out with mom to get stuff for the little one after lunch, then went for cell group. pretty much the same, cept for the fact that after dinner, we all ended up in hanwei's room singing worship songs. amusing, indeed. HAHA. nothing illegal happened, coz I know what's going through hanan thaha's dirty mind, but it was veryvery funny, and well, it's a first. think I dozed off once or twice, hell, I hope there are no photos. ): - solved the cube yet hanwei KORKOR? hahah. church later, and I honestly feel like dying, right here, right now.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008 @ 11:04 PM
today was a day, I smiled alot, laughed alot, and was veryvery, genuinely happy. wells.. school was a horror today, though we had manymany laughs..the science teacher decided that he wanted to be a cedar boy and wore the cedar tie. maddness, indeed. ohwells. after that short moment, I went back to switching off. funny how time wrecks havoc. lit always seems to be a blink away while science seems to stretch forever. hmms. curious. (now I sound like Dumbledore. rawrs) EL audition for CNY is over, and guys, that was out best yet. tying up Sya in the blue pretty cloth and struggling to disengage her when YFC people said it was our turn, Shar turning everyone's blue uniform glittery with the nice gold cloth. impromptu stuff added in on impulse, hahaha. everyone, whether we get in on friday, I demand that we go out and have a proper meal. I seriously dont count canteen stuff as edible food, though I am forced to eat it everyday or let the gastric act up on me. quality school doesnt equal quality food, period. Received Yvoone's sms. "meet us at norm place. urgent." haha, went down and dangdangdangdang, hamster! (: complete with playground, food, cage and what nots. new born, 10days old, just finished nursing. omgg. I love you guys. thanks dears! esp Yvonne. haha. her hamster gave birth, apparently. things still happened that marred my mood, but the little rascal really brightened up my day. (: It responds when I call it Hamham! okay. I know that that's pretty much wistful thinking, but..there is no need to rid another dream of mine, when everything pretty much is over. someone said, being a teen is finding out which door hasnt been slammed in your face yet. I already know all the answer, yet, I dont want to accept the answer. We were discussing class theme for notice board. randomity. what with hotels, spongebobs and barbiedolls(like wth). things popped into my mind which made me think that I ought to open a class to teach people how to be cynical. when I dun say anything it doesnt mean i'm ok with it when I keep mum about it it doesnt mean i'm fine with it if you happen to read this which i guess you will i've heard about it, and just because I didnt say anything or do anything it doesnt mean everything is fine and dainty and that you can carry on you know who you are if this is making you feel bad or guilty, and if you think i'm talking about you, good, thats the whole objective. feel guilty, coward. ohdamnit, I am so pissed at you.
Sunday, January 13, 2008 @ 10:07 PM
weekend's been fun and mentally taxing. though I enjoyed it, well, at least, MOST of it. if it is even to be taken into consideration./: Saturday awoke bright, and a little too early for a sat. walked all the way to MJC(yes, pure maddness) sipping iced milo. breeze was beautiful. (: met the rest at the erm..empty place. okay. some kinda description that is, but still.. all the tension was already there, prepping for comp. - what differentiates debate from all others. the thrill before the chase, in a way. comp went okay. but might be due to the early hour, everyone seemed pretty much zoned out, and was rather out of form. but it was okay, we flattened them anyways. (: the second one was better, then the third, the impropmptu round. hah. "we are on the verge of victory", quoted from _____ debater. HAHAHA. nothing was further from the truth. like HAHA. then we had lunch, and everyone was supersuper stressed. cause it was finals. like 0.0. since we won all the way.. ximin against us. and we didnt clinch champions. but all the same, you guys did great. (: went down to Yihan's place for practise for sunday's worship. hmm. chatted with Yixin alittle. she had her induction that morning. poor things. we had an airconed hall, they didnt. we had fairly passable sound system, and I dont think they did. ohwells. ill fated lot will have 2 years in the new school, so they ought not complain. rawr. I am jealous. I am just going to go back and take Os. rawrs. Sunday another early morning. practised piano at home before heading to church for rehersal. what's with the late culture hmm? ohwells. to cut a long story short, much good all the practising did, screwed, like hell, so badly screwed. ): another layer to that phobia darling. maybe it was the sudden change, but I have a feeling, it is just me. just my problem. stick to what you know dearie. time to make a new start. now, when is mummy going to teach me ar minhui? I remember guitar. (: thanks anyway guys, for all the comfort. but I KNOW I did badly, not a question of, did I or did I not. thanks for the warmth anyway. I find that my life misses it, just too much. OH! and little andrew kissed me okay! hahah. I took his first kiss! we are such naughty kids. service dont listen to sermon play with baby. haha. ahhhh! but so cute! I know that XF is seething with jealousy! heh.  aint he a darling? (: I am in love okay!XP Monday school day, but talk about mind tiring.science bored me to death, literally. funny part. funny incident one! me: what are Anions(annions) and Cations(kaeetions) Mr Leng? They dont seem to be in the notes you gave us. MrLeng: oh, they are blablabla, and they are called Anions(an-ions) and Cations(cat-ions) Malu! heh. this happens when you tune out the teacher and just concentrate on the notes, textbook and the board. oh, what can I do instead? he makes me bored and sleepy and I cant absorb anything. of all years to get a _____ teacher, why this year?! streaming ar streaming! lunched with bel and enrica at pizza hut. somehow from chicken rice become that. had an informal discussion on globalisation when I was telling them about el auditions. haha. Enrica is so biased! And bel was determinedly snoring to stop us. heh. so amusing, but I am known to the sec1s as the Eldds girl now. like o.0 funny incident two. blablablageraldine: they are so no brainers bel: who? geraldine: the next table enrica: ehhh, you can hear them they also can hear you lehs! geraldine: true mah! -super loud no brain comment. seriously stupid one- enrica: snorts into soup. HAHA geraldine: see what I mean? enrica: nods like mad. HAHA. bad habit lahs. I like to listen to random snatches of converstation. you learn alot this way you know. especially about how no brain some people can get. -.- ah. not in the mood to post. let the so called "wuliao pics" (quote bel) by me do the expressions. am just too tired from the relapse.  innovative way to block out the morning sunlight. so nice right? all pastel colours, sweet. nice sky this morning (:
HAHA. this post is so supersuper long. (:
Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 11:28 PM
couldnt resist blogging, and amongst all the thoughts and things that are taking their turn to be relieved as turblent memories, I have very pretty pictures of the innovation of cedarians, particularly of a wonderful class, 1H. okay geraldine, shut up. I know you are reading this, and let me tell you, that we fight it out. I aint afraid, cause that's my ground. Dont expect me to cringe. up there, it's my stage. I accept or decline, I let my voice rise or fall. I hold them spellbound until I end it off. composure, serenity is what you will see. and as the polite exchange of greetings happen, I will not do anything but be graceful. a graceful winner, a graceful loser. no one beats me at my game, cause I set the rules. see you then. I am honed now. more skillful, more manipulative. And I will win.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008 @ 9:56 PM
school - averagely boring after school - moderately boring debate - moderately engaging sigh. such is the boringly boring life that I have. not to mention that I am totally beat after a day at school. napped, for 15mins, and was awoken by a call. (: pulled myself out of bed, and typed something in the search engine, then couldnt stand it, went back to the bed. mom woke me for dinner, and I just left the bowl there after 2 mouthfulls, then went back to sleep. can you derive how exhausted I was! piggish behavior I know, but I know of a cat which sleeps 20 hours a day, so since a cat can do that, I demand my right to do that as well..unreasonability. XP received some reallyreally last minute news that literally threw me off my balance. ohwells. take it as exposure gerald. and maybe, just maybe, you may break through that wall you set for yourself. trained home with estee and fiona, and me and fiona were seriously shooting estee. (X whoever heard of junior bullying senior, now, I am the first case I think. haha. Miss DAO! heh. interesting converstations, surely. 就站在一边，看历史中到复测吗？不。我不敢再陷下去了，也许，这是最明智的选择吧。默默的站在一边。就足够了。
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 @ 9:39 PM
geraldine's been reallyreally sick. like really sick. she has totally changed her voice, so she sounds like rlly sexy(according to some, but I seriously dont think so) ohwells. been busy, and had reallyreally wanted to post last night, but all I could think of after I was done with CNY stuff, lie down and die please. talk about fatigue. chatted alittle online, and plopped, on the bed. Monday stayed back to finish up the script and finalise some stuff with the eldds sec1s, I mean 2s. haha. laughterlaughter, digressdigress, stressstress. haha. but enjoyed myself. (: had a rllyrlly interesting discussion headed by Miss Sick Vanessa and Miss Gross Esthergoh. like HAHAHA. here's the video, dont watch if you are under 13. RA content, seriously. what with french kissing, gaying and how kisses should be. according to Vanessa, when people kiss, their nose would get in the way..so she drew like WEIRD diagrams on the board. haha..someone told me all you have to do is tilt your head lahs! Vanessa, you cuckoo! OMG..cedar's rep is so ruined if I post this on Youtube, heh. someone commented that never had a discussion on this..hahaha..power of single sexed schools, yeah. staggered home literally, and did some work. her table looked like that yesterday. a first for those who have been in her house.  it looked like that after she decided to split things into different files. (: much neater. smiles! haha. Tuesday PE lesson was hilarious today. conz and jiaxuan so funny one. do footdrills do halfway then just sprint back. tsktsktsk. then we had Javelin! hahaha. so we were at the field that faces the PIE. Bel asked Onion aim ERP machine. HEH. lessons beside the window when it is raining and it is wonderfully scenic is really distracting. (: looked so pretty, I wished I could snap pictures of it. was fighting to keep awake and trying to concentrate today..): bad gerald, concentrate okay! Yannah always elbows me when I slip into oblivion. (= thanks tp! you rock my cedar socks(though I dont wear those, unlike all the guai sec1s.) Auditions..tried to be nice, but Nan says I am fierce! like -.- I am the only idiot smiling away, and giving extra chances and prompting, and still! Nan bully me! rawrs! so amusing, but during one of the breaks, me, nan and shar were acting out one of the scripts, taking like multiple characters. So funny! hahaha. maddness..and in front of sec1s somemore, hahaha. (: spotted potential leaders and debaters, and whether ornot you guys get in, I will still know your names, so all the best in cedar. (: okay. maths. chinese. english. here I come. I wish I could say I dont need you. but oddly enough, I crave it.
Sunday, January 6, 2008 @ 9:51 PM
someone made a very very sexist comment today. like grrrr. "what's history?" "his-story lah!" like wth. church today, took group pictures after that and included alittle photowhoring. was damn pissed at someone. you know who you are. like wth. XP and I find that I weirdly still respond to sec1 and I dont really respond when someone says 2H, out of the door! I respond instead, to 1H are you here? ohnooo. timelag,timelag. trapped in the past, I am. I love those chickens okay. haha. I gave XF her cookies, and she ate in datang lah! chester and HX also, just give them, go toilet come back, they give me empty boxes. like o.0 Zefeng say he dont belive is I bake one can! so mean! rawrs. (X the motion's out, and killer. but ohwells. I learnt manymany muchmuch new things today! so that in itself, is a reward. (: whoever heard of incentives to help global warming? not like it is going to help in the longlong run right? reminds me of little chaps like my bro who has to be bribed to study. what nonsense. so tomorrow's gonna be a longlong day, and I refuse to pull a longlong face. (: now that there isnt jogging anymore, I feel weird. rawr. poorsec1s dont get to see their seniors jog and cheer anymore, not like my batch is hype on cheering. but still...cedarculture bu jian le, so saddening. can I tell you how I feel and not bother about the consequences anymore?
Friday, January 4, 2008 @ 10:54 PM
 Sherilyn's BDAY! hauled the birthday cake I hopped down to TM to buy yesterday, and we sang like a SUPERSUPER loud birthday song in the canteen! she blushed lah! so cute! heh. 10 people overpower the whole canteen. Sec1s, got your first taste of the cedar culture already? culture of maddness, but I like. (: HAHA. Seriously okay! the whole canteen went quiet! 10 people! like ZOMG! haha. we all should do away with mikes, ask the 10 of us shout annoucements everyday! clearer lahs! stupid PA system makes my blood boil. XP  not everyone's hands are here, but love people. (:CAKE FIGHT! haha. people play face, they play cothes one. haha. luckily it came off. and due to the lack of plates, we were eating with hands lah! like GROSS. (X the topings were off in seconds, literally. what hungry ghosts we are! haha. belbel so funny! she counting taxis on PIE and I was being hypnotised by the cars during science. so easy stuff he say until eveybody blurblur. HAHA. JUST SAY GRAVITY SAME LAH BODOH! HAHA. I am so mean. X= debate on homosexual acts. heh. somethings happened that made chandini laugh until she turned red, literally. hahah. mal is turning into secondjoy alrdy. interesting. hmms..(X DEBATE JACKET! YAY! did badly for 3rd speaker. not enough organisation, rawr. seriously cant watch romance serials. was watching this part when the guy called the girl just to play guitar and sing a song, and -smiles-. geraldine ar, wait long lah. haha. back to reality, and I am making a conscious effort to try to improve my grades. happy birthday sherilyn dearie, best partners, for life. (: hope you like the present. You are special to me, thus the gift. keep it safe okay? (X
Thursday, January 3, 2008 @ 7:57 PM
am so ultraultra blur. took 26 from school and dropped off at kallang mrt, thinking of staggering home and throwing myself on the bed. somehow ended up taking to cityhall before I realised that I was on the wrong train. like o.o hahaha. blurness, 100%. haha. was thinking about something else lahs. second day of school, and life's still the same. had home e today, and frying eggs always makes me laugh. hahaha. especially when enrica isnt around, and I am working with Kashmira. hah. bet my fingers that the lady has neverever stepped into the kitchen at home. hahaha. deepa's egg was, heh. amusing, nevertheless. Sushi, free reign creation. Mine look the nicest and tasted the most passable okay! home e, always makes me laugh. maths was also very amusing. heh. deepa's crush! hahaa. we kept glancing in her direction and trying to smoother giggles. so fun. (: inside joke lah inside joke. he was so puzzled and asked why we laughed, nownow, it wouldnt be nice for you to know, would it, Mr Ang? hahaha. he asked Izah for sentence to describe our class and me and Yanny, sitting in front of her, told her to tell him: "we have alot of inside jokes. " haha. of course she didnt say it though. X= lamejoke of the day. Q: car driving along the highway, when it broke down, cause no petrol. bee came to the resque. what did bee do? A: he peeed. (BEE-PEE, GETTIT?) HAHAHA. lamness. okay. so next time when you see a car break down along the express way when you are dreaming in class, you know what to do. CALL A BUNCH OF BEES! tow-aways company is so going to sue me. (X went out to get _____'s stuff. like zomggg. TM is so ahbeng's paradise during the weekdays. remind me never to step in there at that time again, especially alone. I am so intimidated and pissed off. always was.saw a few siglap students gossiping about cedar on the train. I tapped her shoulder and gave her a rather(in my opinion) polite run down. X= school's great, love it. haha. I have a feeling I am going to love english, period. maths shouldnt be a problem, science teacher has a gay face, but science and chinese were never big problems. madam audra rocks, so lit is also okay. (: debate tomorrow! YAY! I love school so muchh! okay. shut up, geraldine.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008 @ 8:21 PM
hmms. new school year, with a new school compound thrown in. how does that sound? fantastic? nahs. subconsciously, I wanted to return to this.
ahh. at least there were familiar faces, and the familiar lifting of smile as I saw them. these people will be the ones who will pull me through my education. (: highness all the way, smile, laughter and recess-ing. unfamiliar canteen, but the familiar rush for food, familiar stores. and for that, I am contend. (: piano was a diaster, fullstop. cant seem to settle. weird. what went down comes up almost immediately. suspect something's wrong, terribly so. so much for instinct. /: I know you dont get the hidden meaning behind my words. or maybe you do, cause you must be a heck of an actor. debatedebate where are you? calm this fluttering heart with logics and facts and rational thinking, oh pleasepleaseplease. expecting a busy day tomorrow. someone, drive a knife through this heart. cause anything is better than dying from fatigue. happy birthday caris. (: wanted to call, but it slipped my mind among all others.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008 @ 11:12 AM
on the other hand, I BAKED COOKIES SUCCESSFULLY! hehehe! YEAH!(: churchies, you guys are expecting a treat since I baked like manymanymany cookies.(: yumyum. be happy okay guys, I dragged myself out of bed to bake those. XP cause I am like really sick now, and I think I just lost my voice. mom says I sound sexy, I say I sound like I need cough syrup. ):
@ 10:18 AM
2007 has been a year filled with blessings for me. 2007 saw me entering cedar and beginning my secondary school life. 2007 saw me in debate, saw me having plenty of fun and gave me a new thought flow to consider, and with my cca-mates, lunching and making helluva lot of noise. (: 2007 saw me in a new class, with new friends, and most importantly, the clique: isabel, sherilyn, enrica,leena,hanan,cassandra tho. love you guys so much, you guys gave me the strength to go on when I thought I would just die. (: 1h'ers'07 - no more slacking! next year streaming! 2007 saw me walking into MOELC as a foreign language student. knew many, and though the lessons were more often than not puzzling, what with the teacher's weird accent, inbetween breaks and instant noodle lunches, we had fun, didnt we? 2007 saw me in SF, with all the rest of my churchies. (: East coast cycling trips, lunching out. bonding. I love you all. you guys can always make me smile. (: let's do it more often kkays? Tried getting more invovled in church, and production, though it made me stressed out at more than one point,what with juggling the timings and all, the reward and the bond at the end, was all worth it. 2007 saw me planning LC with the exco, probby the final thing we are going to do, are going to plan. took up much of my time, and with the graduation of us, we had alot of disagreements and unhappiness): but all went well in the end, and if you ask me, I thought they enjoyed it. (: 2007 saw me with new friends, saw me vexing over and trying to get the things out right on time.but the end was great. 2007 saw me knowing you guys for who you are, and guys? thanks. (: many things happened this year, filled with tears, laughter, hugs and letters. (: many firsts, many harrowing experiences, but through it all, I survived it. I am who I am today with all the help of everyone around me. goals aplenty in my mind as I prepare once again, to step into cedargirls secondaryschool, to begin life as a sec2. no longer as ignorant as I was in sec1, and ready to take what comes my way. much to learn, and much to treasure. shoulder the responsibilities I have with pride and a smile, to train hard for debate, to tolerate anything that should irritate me, to smile more, and to be a person who others would find it easy to love. to remember old promises and renew new ones, and most of all, to be who I want to be. |
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bless those balloons. the rare moment when all 4 were around. I think we burst 7 balloons! cool eh? I love you guys, omg. D:
