♥ for all that we've done,

Friday, February 29, 2008 @ 11:55 PM

yes. so I am back in Singapore, not ~~dreading~~ anticipating my next supersuper long bus ride. mmm. talk about LONG. &for someone with motion sickness like yours sincerely, talk about hells. but I made it, though if I go for another one week, someone can send me to the doc's who will tell me I am officially anorexic. was puking out every single thing that I ate, honest. ahs, weight lost plan then.

since I am so tired(yes, despite napping constantly on the bus), and I do want to get some stuff settled by tonight, I am just going to jog the memory and the smiles. what with predictable menus for lunches and dinner, manymany donuts,(yes, drool please), manymany laughter at stupid stuff with my louver(louser lover), bimbooos, plasticised fishes, camwhoring, stupid antics of LL & CC plus eggs in steamboat soup.

okay. I am done.

and on a second tier, I am actually rather surprised that alot of people didnt know I left the country for cameron highlands. didnt know I was so..mistakeable. mhms. rights.

OH. I want to watch The Leap Years. (: shall squeeze time out to watch. any takers? dont blame me, I hate romance in real life, but am actually a sucker for it.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008 @ 10:41 PM

school is as unmeaningful as usual, but we got back our geog, and though I am not entirely satisfied with this term's commontest grades, what can I do but lament that I havent been putting my best foot forward? next term then, I will do better. (:

had a bundle of laughs today during lit as usual. retarded, honest. what is it that 2H cant understand simple instructions? ohohoh! and Miss Siew is sitting in for our lessons, hehs, she must have been shocked at our attitudes. so much better than it was when she took us for english, teacherbulliers, we are. (:dont eat soft, eat hard. our class is damn fan jian lahs. HAHA. cant blame us, really. xp

screwed up debate today, screwed so damn bad. rawrs. what is it that my brain hasnt been functioning properly? cannotcannotcannot. must get back into working order before JG's motion release for the next one, omggg. cant have a non-working brain on the comp floor, I will just die.): ahhh, worst come to worst, request for replacement from Fiona, though that is reallyreally going to be the last resort.

on a lighter and funnier note though, me, estee and Joy went for icecream prata! wow, really nice. (: made all the more pleasant by the company and the laughter. XD let's have a debate tradition, go for prata after every debate session. (: ahahha, we will all become overweight by the end of the year! XD but do let's go for supper after the next JGs since we have to go back to school for EL camp anyways. (: lovelovelove the debatefamily of love. OH! WHERE ARE OUR NAMES CAPTAIN AND PRESIDENT?!

so..LJ's tomorrow. wonder what we can expect? one thing I know, with all the gang present, is that we are going to have lots and lots of fun, laughter and smiles. go easy on Mdm Er okay, she is a nice teacher. (x

so, bags packed, things done, let's go have fun! :D

will be missing you though, weird and conflicting emotions. ahs, did I expect things to remain the same after awhile? geraldine, you are such an idiot. time to take a step back I suppose. crushes are supposed to last long anyways. school those thoughts girl, the world aint a place for weakness. debate & school comes first, at all times girl.

Monday, February 25, 2008 @ 10:16 PM

@ 10:07 PM

well, extremely disappointing day for me. got back our maths, and I didnt expect to do so badly. mhms. rephrase, I have never done so badly in my entire studying life. ): rawrs. careless mistakes be my bane, and the fact that I overlooked the importance of revising map. I thought I could remember! moral of the story, dont procrasinate.

Almost died today, as usual. I swear half the class was pouring sweat and the other half were palefaced. see the fitness level of our unfit class. haha. (: ohwells, must be optimistic, only with such mad training then you can pass your napfa with flying colors! xp small comfort honestly. I want to join Enrica and direct traffic also! someone, break my leg bone please?

LJ in one day's time, and am I looking forward to photowhoring and playing games in the room. anyone bringing cards? haha, we are planning to slip out of the hotel, so we are going to have Enrica in the hotel room pointing to three pillows under the blankets they sleep le. HAHA, dunno why we bother, Mdm Er already say she will allow us to go. well, the thrill of rule breaking I guess. and since lights are out at 11, we are going to hide in the room cupboard when teacher come and check enrica and belbel's room, then when she knock on our door, we play the snoring sound from one of our hps, then she will think we are all asleep. planning our midnight feast already, though I doubt we can last that long on the second day. (:

Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ 2:48 PM

I realised that I always have about a dozen things to blog about, or I always tell Yannah, OMG, I HAVE TO BLOG about this. then go home, and conveniently forget. hahs.

home econs presentation is over, YAY. what is it with the world and wordy slides! It puts me off so badly luhs. and reading from the slides are so, errr. partial credits to Kelwin since I kopped pictures from his blog, sad luhs you, who ask you take nice photos that ties with my theme! :D

had the worst ever debate in school yesterday. nono, not el debate, but class debate. urgh. was damn pissed. xp

yannah came back after MT lessons and I started complaining to her. now she says I am always pissed after chinese, crap, really. haha, but yes, typically in her own words "we cheer each other up" and yes, I love my tp, hearts.

english was spent drafting our narrative thing. supposed to be a recount, really, but I dont happen to have had a shotgun marriage, been tortured by my wife, killed her and all, which is what my storyline is going to be about, inspired by a newspaper article.

we drafted this "schedule" for who will feed the baby at night, haha, obviously sidetracking from the point of the poem, which was a simple, why did they started fighting. HAHA.

mon,wed,friday: DAD

tue,thur,sat: MOM

sunday: hamsterbottle! HAHA

so the conclusion was, I treat babies like Hamsters, and I have a particularly handsome rodent for a husband, being a rodent myself! HAHA

oh, then I was telling yannah that my hamster poops constantly when it is scared, and it pooped alot at the vet. so yannah, being yannah, imagined us pooping at the clinic. it spread around like wildfire, mind you.

doctor: "breathe in"

-takes deep breathe-

patient: "pooppooppooppoop"

Literature was superbly amusing.

OHOHOH! deepa and leena watches Desperate Housewives with their parent, OMG.

Madam Audra asked: "Then what about those scenes?"

Leena: "OKAY what"

Deepa agrees

Madam Audra's eyes starts twitching.

HAHAHA

then Madam Audra was talking about seeing ahems at red light districts when she is on the bus, my school's awfully close to that area, mind you,

Leena didnt quite understand "on the bus" and asked: "HUH? people go up to you ah?!"

ohmy, how much by the hour?

what a crappy class I have, HAHA. no one's complaining though, madam audra rocks the house down!

debate was fine, nothing much though, or that I am just too lazy to continue blogging. (:

Wednesday, February 20, 2008 @ 9:20 PM

love, indeed.

@ 9:07 PM

mhms. pulled through the day, and thanks to the nap last night, was seemingly okay in school today. mhms. endurance perhaps.

feel supersuper mean during the first half of debate today. supersuper mean. but since we have to evaluate, I thought we ought to be harsh. We point them out, then we rid them. so many different characters, so many personalities, so many cliques. how would it turn out, ultimately, at the end of four long years, in cedar? would they change? would we change? amazing, how we entered eldds as ignorant sec1s a year ago, such a short period, assumingly, but so much changes, so much growth. my seniors made it possible for us to grow, even flourish. would we play such a big part as well? I wonder, and again, to reflect, who am I to judge? I can only help, to the greatest extent, I can only try. I hope, so sincerely hope, that when they, when we, walk out of the cedar door four years later, we will all be what we should, to the best of our potential, our abilities, as cca mates, as friends. promised myself at the start of the year that I would try to be a good senior, a good junior. I dunno about the good junior part, but as a senior, should I even have discriminations? granted, I have had some nasty run ins with her, but is it too early to mark her as hopless? I know that she isnt, but am I willing to give her a chance and more importantly, to reach out and bring her out from her shell? her shell wasnt built in a day, but of years of hate, of hurt? how much love would it take to bring her out from that shell? do I, and can I do it? what can I do, other than pray? for wisdom, for patience, for love perhaps. cause I belive, I know, I can. And I will. We will. (:

games on friday, ohboy, I am so excited. (: let's all wear housetees okay sec2s!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008 @ 5:57 PM

I am officially sick. haha. ohwells. expected it coming for a week already, thank god it came full force only after JGs, else I could just have died. D:

combination of fatigue, new year goodies, valentine's chocs, lunch out with friends on all the heaty food, and me generally in the not too good shape. mhms.

still pondering if I should go to school tomorrow, but there is eng and hist timed assignment! rawrs. today was hell during hist, was fighting not to fall asleep. english sucked like nobody's business, was fighting to keep the eyelids open. yannah had to prode me a few times. damnns. and the biggest joke was, I slept the earliest I have ever done since entering secondary school life, annddd I actually napped for quite some time last night!

ohwells. school was okay. and I realised 2H always makes a joke out of something in science. finally able to get my hands on something to touch with. (: visking tubing ah! hanan is so dirty minded, that one also can connect with condom, tsk. leena carried it one step further when Mr leng said to wash it before using it by saying it was to lubricate it, HAHA. the gang is having oh a heavenly time making havoc during science, so to speak. xp deepa was so stupid, laughing the loudest, before "er, what she meant ar?" zomg.

music was sightreading time for me man. half the class in comp lab, half in music room. hahah, play random songs from the book then they will sing along, HAHA, my sightreading sucks. (: Liyue's worst. HA. Constance was like messing up the rhythym. HAHA. omggggg. phantom of the opera and memories. :D the terribly funny hightunes when we cant reach ehs?

ah, yawns, I still havent decided to skip school ornot. (:

oh, on a random point, I am hooked on phantom of the opera at the moment. love the conflicting emotions. especially like think of me..for reasons, to be unstated

Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 10:37 PM

All of a sudden, I am known as loser. -.- thanks ah zee, start for me. hahaha. brought my super big pink flower home today! haha, left it in school on friday coz it looks super weird bringing into JGs. HAHA. ohwells.

yes. leng wasnt in school today. hahahaha. super retardddd video okay! we just filled in the worksheets ourselves and let the useless video play to "cover" our noise level. haha, what good students we are, honestly.

am sick. rawrs. lagged behind during PE today lahs, stupidddd. was feeling super giddy and was probby swaying after the run. ahahah, enrica so scare I fall into the drain she held on to me till we were back on firm ground. HAHA.

KANGKONG! hahaha, I realised that the Mixed Veg Auntie probby makes the most money from Kangkongs okay! everytime someone in our recess gang buys rice, sure buy kangkong, and then everyone will kop. but today all eat rice, so no one kop, coz all ordered kangkongs. these are surely the memories I will relieve when I talk a walk down memory lane maybe 5, 10 years back I guess. (:

Geog video was super funny, was doing my zuowen at the same time, but we were laughing like mad, HAHAHA. (: Super lousy cars lahs, 2H will know what I am talking about.

mhmsmmmmsss. found out something that made me super shock today okay. omg, mei lian de. I felt so naive afterwards. ): ah, ohwells.

Hist CT tomorrow, mhms.

Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 9:26 PM

I am super filled angst now. The past week that I have denied or pushed back for the sake of JGs has just tumbled on me. isnt it great, how things turn out?

I am superbly unhappy. yes. so you ask, what's new? actually, nothing's new. My is a life filled with being pushed aside when not needed, never treasured, never wanted. always something extra, always someone to be murmured about behind. great? fine? yeah.

first it was within el. then that was resolved. then after the CNY crap, then I dont know.

first it was last year, now?

first it was you two. now?

I dont know, I cant know.

I am sick of putting on a nice front smilling away.

I am so so so sick of you. especially you. that comment you made hit home. indeed, no one's ever on my side without even wanting to hear my story. What have I done wrong? Am I just your punching bag? Am I just the one you turn to when you need? What am I to you? What,exactly? Nothing helps. I only want to cry, to shake you so hard you grit your teeth. Do you know how hard I have to still my head to not raise my voice at you, to slam the facts in your face, those that you so treasure? Arent you spoilt?

I dont know. Shall continue being the useless one, I guess.

Maths.

Saturday, February 16, 2008 @ 9:36 AM

JGs yesterday. we lost. but does it matter, ultimately?

good experience. dazed speakers tired out at the super late hour. didnt catch some of their points. they werent as good as we thought, hmms. my teamates are the best, and we can, and we will. the pats, the hugs, the pep talk, and all. atmosophere, POI-ing at the canteen, walking around the school as we went through our speeches, it would have been nice to win, honest, but it was alright, really. Vidhya came, and I met the legendary Reka, who was adjudicating.

Heels really really sucks. especially when you are walking downhill. rawrs. personal staring war with the second speaker from the other team, and since he looked downright mean, I decided not to accept and POIs from him. hehs. (:

Thursday, February 14, 2008 @ 10:14 PM

these few days been a hectic whirl, but whirling has its own fun, and I reckon my empty brain grew slightly fuller. (:

14th feb

Vday in cedar is overated, wonderfully so. really heartwarming to see juniors bustling after seniors, seniors sticking heads into classroom carefully to look for juniors. chocs, flowers, cookies, letters; all in the bag. thanks for all the prezzies dears, such loves. super funny incident happened when I was going around giving my juniors their presents. HAHA.

Homeecons was annoying. haha, nevermind, shall not dampen my mood with that horrid thing. (=

Science test was SUPER annoying and irritating. never teach then you test us, want to die isit! RAWRS. super rude in science lab afterwards, and the 16yearold gabrielleng smells awful. I WANT TO WATCH THE SUPER DANGEROUS EXPERIMENT. Better still, let me do it! though the chances are zzerrro! RAWRs. leena smelt hafizah's bf!

- leng passing down some perfume thing to illustrate diffusion-
hafizah: smells familiar
leena: smell like your boyfriend mahs!
Mrleng: OHHOR! leena! why you smell izah's boyfriend? when ar?
-superloud ohhors by us. (:-

15th feb
In the comp lab now doing music presention, and school comps load Youtube so super slowly. Doing Hairspray, what a joke, doing something that I have neither heard now saw before. Hear Mulan's reflection coming from someone's comp.

tire nowadays easily, mood's been a rollercoaster ride, cant tell can you? JGs later, tensed already. hope nothing stupid like m tearing my socks or breaking my heels happen, pleasepleaseplease nonono. Maths paper was fine. careless mistakes though, danngg.

thinking about things I ought not. friendship, was supposed to be give and take, but why does it seem to me that I am doing all the giving, and no one else is? I changed alot already, just to accomodate you all. I used to have things done my way, no one usually said no. but I used reason, I didnt use force. I am disappointed.

Monday, February 11, 2008 @ 10:04 PM

I have devastating news.
Truly, Honestly, Deeply. okay. deeply sounds terribly out here, but it just sounded good.

NO MORE XINMIN SPAR ON WED! AHHHHHHH

but.

yes. there are always buts, didnt you know?

but, but, but

we are sparring against our own debaters. Me, estee and Joy.

mhms.

yes, that lessed the blow.

super drama.

- faints. -

am in no mood to post. Vday preps, too bad you are not my valentines. haha, I realise I get lazier as I grow older. haha, especially with all the prep work. Went shopping with esteepang for gift ideas. (: super amusing, the way we compare prices. like Aunty at the super market, lol.

oddly lethargic.

oh. and we are such good stoners.

Saturday, February 9, 2008 @ 12:35 PM

it doesnt matter.

@ 12:28 PM

we have a spar with XM on wed, at their school. cool, not?
we have JGs at PLMGS against NJC(IP) on friday. cool, not?

gonna be travelling around alots, so I can see people's school compounds and say how cedar is so much better. X= HAHA, not. but yes, this is one of the plus points of debate, you get to travel all around s'pore. last year me and shar enjoyed school hopping during JG's, I so can remember. this year's slightly different though, I am actually debating, so hopefully I am not too panic stricken I cant even look at the surroundings.

I am craving Starbucks.

I am craving inspiration to drop out from the sky and miraculously help to process all the info in the brain.

I am craving the superstrength to suddenly finish all my holiday hw, coz I am staring at the file, and I havent started.

I am craving company.

I am craving You.

mhms. what a long list. such a greedy person.

listening to some emo crap of music. and I thought, how I would love to fly too.

sweet nothings.

yeah, right, it is just, nothing.

@ 12:46 AM

CNY. Hah. The season to eat and eat, and take money which you know you wont get to keep, and drink and be merry, meet up with super old friends, play with the cousins, get a headache from all the noises. ah, the never ending list. (: but I enjoyed my new year, pretty much. (:

Wed

performance in school with the other sec2s, not the best, but heck, we did our best. haha, nan and her seductive moves, shar and her ratty actions..(: I love you people.

This, I love.

Went to Bishan library to research for the motion afterthat, and I am so happy, got all the books that I wanted. -beams-

Went J8 walkwalk alone afterthat while waiting for my dad to come and pick me up. went to a gift shop, and saw ads for V'day. & the first thing I thought of when I saw a bouquet of 9 roses was, what's the use of knowing what they mean, when no one would give it to you? oh, the thoughts./:

Had reunion dinner with the cell group and Jianwen at sakura. haha, super funny, and a new experience, eating buffet and with so many people, (: watched the fireworks from HX's condo that he doesnt live in, fantastic night view.

Nice romantic places to talk ehs? hehs, inside joke. (:

two of the manymany photos that we took. hearts!

Thursday

went grand's place, and got my ears constantly barraged by noise, ah, hecks. the cousins were either taking turns bantering for attention and to be carried, or trying to outdo each other trying to blast the tv. omg. add that to the mahjong clicks, hell. thank god I only have to tolerate it once a year, might just die.

"debated" with my smallest uncle over steamboat is wonderfully amusing too. he asked which school I was in, and I told him I was in cedargirls. and he actually asked me not to make such a joke and frighten him on CNY. like, wth. haha, it sparked off the, why girls school actually is better than mixed school debate. omgg lahs. old fashioned, stereotyping, damnit. to think that his elder daughter is going to take PSLE next year. rawrs. convinced him, nevertheless, why girls school was better. the funniest part was hoe he asked my cca after that, and I told him "debate". HAHAH. his expression, was priceless. XD

baby cousin!

Friday

Went to grand's again, the other grand, then went to god dad's house. (: the highlight of my new year, hehes. the guys all just seemed to realise that I was a girl, hahaha, so amusing, their expresssions of discomfort. HAHA. (: pillow fights, nevertheless, the annual friends, the all-super-tall guys, and I am going to admit that they have all become hunks, more or less, but kill me, and I wont say it in front of them. XP

ah, heck. I need to go and do my case, but jolly, I had a fun time.

Monday, February 4, 2008 @ 8:02 PM

this is so gonna be an emo, irrational, undebater, stupid post. ignore it.

I love you's are so common, so popular. the first one said hesitatingly, then often enough, then it becomes as common as hello. what then, is the true meaning at the end?

I am sorry. 3 such simple words, but such a step down from pride, such a degrading act if you would look at it in that manner.

Yes, I am angry, angry enough to give you the cold shoulder. Made me one step madder, and you would have gotten more than just a few sentences of the harsh truth, a piece of my mind. Yes, I would love to slap you in the middle of the crowd, just for the pleasure of making you cringe, hopefully with guilt. Yet, I knew that it would be fruitless, it would degrade not only you, but me myself, so I swallowed the spurts of irritating and directed it to remarks that only you, the person involved would understand. I knew what you wanted from the minute you walked up to me. You knew very well that I would not forgive, that I could no sooner forget the harm you inflicted on me with your sweet nothings. I made excuses for you, I tried to reason out your actions with myself, even when instincts were screaming for me to let go. I was a fool, and you ought to know me well enough to know that I never make the same mistakes twice.

Fuming in anger.

Yet history repeats itself. But the person involved has grown still, since then. I can walk away, unscathed, and I will.

Spurts of irritation alternating with perhaps a hint of jealousy.

right. I am done venting.

@ 5:09 PM

"Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks"

Enrica came in late today, okay, not exactly late, but later then we have ever seen her, mumbling this under her breathe. what a nice way to greet the new week ehs?

"Life aint life if it doesnt sucks" - Tianqi's reply

true, definitely. hahah. was reviewing geog notes this morning on the car, when I finally figured out a way to remember the components of the human environment. PS: ACT. hahah, spread it around in class before morning assembly, and poof, everyone remembers now. haha. (:

OH! my rose is withering! the petals are dropping. ): and I thought of ____. rawrs. ohwells. they are still on my desk, and I hope it doesnt act as what will happen eventually to us, as a group.

Yanny is back from her one week MC, and boy doesnt she look sick. ohwells. get well soon tabbie! and I am back to doodling on her worksheets. (X

this made me smile. (:

Geog test wasnt THAT bad. didnt finish the paper though. there goes my lorms! rawrs. ohwells. first one only, nvm lahs. and note to thyself, GET THE SCHEDULE RIGHT!

trained back with Estee. HAHA. It takes so little to get that evil senior high! and JG's motion's is coming out tomorrow 5. Hound Mr Sng till he sends it to us! I am terribly excited! ohwells.

back to boring valency.

Sunday, February 3, 2008 @ 9:17 PM

Sunday means church.

but for a really tired geraldine, dragging myself up (after trying to mug science last night) took considerable efforts.

ohwells.

wore a long tee today, and jeans underneath, but mum, came in & criticised, so I ended up using the tee as a dress. XO

so many adverse reactions, excuse me lah, me lady right!

lunched with BS at KFC, and they sprang a surprised brownie covered with cornflakes, & choc icecream. haha. nice! pure concidence that I told Caris that I wanted choc icecream before lunch (: was super malued and shocked when they sang song for me at KFC. (: but thankyou!

Didnt go with them to Jeannie's house, due to the pileup of work, & the need to mug for geog CT tomorrow. such loserrrs we are can! so used to be able to predict Lorms question, this time we cant, so we are pratically are in frenzied, paranoia attacks. HAHA. As Bel puts it, "memorise then cry tomorrow after CT lahs." Cramming, in a sense now, coz I forgot all about CT till last night before I turned in, WUUNDEFUL. bel's new fave word!

&&& Teachers are all super meanies, put CTs on Vday and after CNY, damnit. Pineapple tarts and mugging dont go together, thank you very much. XP well, on the bright side, no PE tomorrow, so no half dead students, I guess. ):

Someone is just so funny. HAHA.

RIGHT. Back to mugging.

Saturday, February 2, 2008 @ 2:53 PM

have been wondefully busy these few days, but it was all worth it. (:

debate on friday against NUS high, apples and oranges(HAHA), 90% of taxidrivers, meritocracy, pissing speakers who dont take POIs at all, and god knows what ; another chapter in the memories. (: Oh! and Cedarians do not socialise well, I realised. hehs.

manymany funny things recently, and we found out that Mr Leng reads blogs, ohno. caution bloggers, caution! Big red ones screaming for attention ehs?

mhms. thanks to all that wished me happybirthday, it really was quite nice and sweet.

exco '05-'06 : Thanks for hamham!

clique-rs! : white roses, chocs and a nice brownie cake, thankfully, creamless! plus a super loud bday song in the canteen..fight with the sec1s for who has a louder voice ehs? We win hands down lah, they got 20 people still so soft! we 6 people only lehs! woots!

churchies!: thanks for all the wishes, earrings, and the nice smiley thing.(: Love you guys lots and lost.

Bday wishers- via sms. : sorry I didnt reply everyone! my sms will bao lahs, seriously, but nevertheless, thanks!

Birthday songs! hehes. I love cedar versions. (: But butbut I still dunno how to react when people sing for me. hehs. (X

tired out and exhausted, ploped to bed at 9 last night, was so damn exhausted. (: more recharged now, at least I am steady on my feet. (:

things went well for the final rehersal (: sec2s rock the house down lah!

only shar posed! the rest all camera shy one!

DEARDEAR Mal and me! - oh, dont see she so placid, she can be SUPER fierce one hor! "Stay away from the door." debaters would know what I am talking about!

Nan is obessed with two things, and two things only. her book and the AS mirror!

haha, the loves of my life. (:

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