♥ for all that we've done,

Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 10:30 PM

all I wanted to do was to go to the beach and cry. I wouldnt let myself though, choking back.

Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 7:05 PM

today was a depressing, tiring, furstrating, funny day, ahh, I always had the blessings of wonderful sundays, no?

hopes banked on. guess I'll just draw back and try to blend into the background, no?

guilty chocolate cravings. always had it when I am not in the best of moods.

haha, the best and most ironic thing, you dont even know it's you, do you?

caris and xf are happy, even lena is. I'll be happy for them, and ignore the throbbing heart that cries out for alittle more. cause that's what it is doing, bleeding from a wound so small, I cant locate it to eradicate it.

I dont know why I am behaving like that, having distinctly experience god in my life last week. ahh, forgive this wilful daughter lord.

guess, I will just concentrate on school (which I have promised myself to do so ever since I heard about _____ ) and being the nice person always with a beautiful smile and a cheeky comment

cause, ultimately, all of us, act, to our best interest.

smile girl, that's all you are good for.

@ 12:15 AM

THIS SPACE WILL REMAIN EMPTY UNTIL ESTEE UPLOADS PHOTO. TRIBUTE TO JG TEAM '08. (:

@ 12:07 AM

so, cedar has not qualified for the top8 for national debate championships. we lost to HCI, valiantly. our best this season. fire, lots of it. rational? I dont know about that, since we have not had debrief. estee was a walking fireball, especially during the last part. Joy, was as usual, logical, cool, and with the twinge of fire that makes you go, wow. we gave a good run for their money huh. (: despite the small disagreement on the bus, I hope hope hope no one's mad. really.

I have manymany people to thank, the reasons never ending. For the chance, the support, the occasional whacking? words, dont express what I feel I suppose. (:

Icecream! went for icecream before we went back to school and poof, all our lofty ideas of watching which school and which school, which round and which round. HAHA. typical. but, yesh, we had fun. addicting fries and stickychewychocolate icecream, complete with photowhoring and nonsense talking.

ohwells, cell group was fun, what with hide and seek and impossible people missing super distinct clues, ahh.

oh. I did something to my hair, and now I look like a childish person. urgh.

Thursday, March 27, 2008 @ 10:36 PM

where is my life leading? I feel, lost. Am I worth anything at all? standing next to them, I feel so, inferior. and, I dont want to draw back. yet I subconsicously, do.

@ 10:22 PM

today was the average let's go to school and stay in there till formal education's complete kinda day.

nothing interesting, though the enzymes story that Mr Leng told cracked us up, and the trainee teacher's lesson invovled using cereal to bribe us. funny how a bunch of supposedly sophiscated sec2 rebellious students turn into good little primary school when bribed with edible stuff. Miss Ahlian decided to bribe us to, early recess. redundant actually, she doesnt like us, we dont like her. fair, in my opinion.

stayed back and highed while doing maths with onion, then Izah took her place. met the seniors, and ohno. sighs.

shalyn called me when I was on the way home. something about not making it to a pupil leader thingum. haha, so aint I dear, so aint I. And I sorta realised, that I dont really care about it. rule breaker, rebel against the rules? do I really want to walk up that path after spending half a lifetime scolding people who do? I dont. I really dont. but it somehow sticks in the craw sometimes, when the system which chose great fantastic leaders, rejected me. I am not going to try again. call me a coward, spectaculate that I am scared of failure. hey, maybe I am. but I feel, that the reason to try out is wrong. this time, it would be to prove that I CAN DO IT. wrong mentality, uhhuh. & Shalyn? It is their loss that they didnt choose someone as good as you are. wish I can say the same for my own.

daryl's annoying me. not hankering after boys is a crime to him apparently. URGH. so childish, the way he speaks, opinions, actions. annoyed.

ahh, I have a new baby hamster. (:

I feel, weird.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ 8:55 PM

today, is a good day. well, even if it wasnt, double choc chip cookies from subway made it so. (: my debate coach's uncanny ability to know when we arent in the tip top debater mode, and the way to fix the problem. haha.

PE wasnt that bad, really enjoyed myself, for a change. school was average, but some have their fingers stained brown by the pottasium potaganate solution, damn cool. made sure my hands were out of the way, but my dear enrica released her hold on the cappilary tube too fast and got her hand stained. nitric acid in distilled water considerably lightened it though.

debate made me positively realise how fragile the world was. how everything is in a precarious balance, and a slight tip might make everything upside down. how would life be if everything was topsyturvy? such a random thought, since the motion had to do with us opposing to 16yearolds voting. but it really made me, I dont know..?

trained home with fiona cause estee had to rush off home for chinese tution. first time someone's asking me not to rein in my temper, and actually give in to the fire in me. haha, no problem I think. since holding back was usually the problem. yet somehow, I know I am not the best, and that keeps me from being the best. I dont know, weird psychology perhaps.

short break from all that homework and debate case, but I really have to get back to my work. I may not be the best, but damn, you wont see me giving up, not anytime soon.

Monday, March 24, 2008 @ 10:58 PM

didnt go to school today, cause 1, piano exam and I wanted to practise at home and 2, I was really really sick. ohwells. didnt see a doctor, so I would have to run tomorrow during PE, and you all will see a really pale looking g at the end of Miss Leong's terror reign. ahhhh.

twisted some guy's hand on the MRT, and I am damn proud of myself. hahaha, he fingered my hair when he didnt even know me! excuse me, people who know me dont even touch my hair and you young hooligan is PLAYING with it? haha, everything comes with a price, and I twisted his hand just before I got off the train so that he couldnt even recover enough to retaliate. woohoo. I hope it hurts for a day or two at least. THAT should teach him. haha, see, TKD comes in handy when defending against stupid guys. haha, am I itching to try out the one when someone unexpectedly holds you around the shoulder in a death grip, sam would know what I am rambling about. (:

piano exam is over, and I am crossing my fingers for a distinction..I think it went quite well without any super major screw ups. (:

ah, now back to the debate case.

ohhh..there's this young couple in my maths class that's damn annoying. especially when the guys shoots looks at me and the girl stares daggers at me. like I would want a young dumbdumb who is so damn full of himself for a boyfriend. no competition, hands down. stupid, really. sheesh

@ 12:15 AM

what keeps me going at the end of a longlong day.

poohja, me, joy, estee and nadia - JG team '08

Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 11:55 PM

" this is not one of my best days. "

infer people. I am trainning your inference skills for history paper.

one, geraldine is sick. like, stomach flu, common flu and a slight fever. sighs, 说来就来。not the best time to fall ill now lehs..not like it ever is the opportune time to fall ill. but seriously, so urghish. I am hooping fervently my throat remains okay.

two, Franklin made me hopping mad today. How I wished at that point of time we were anywhere but in church, and that I could knee him. but since we were in church, and I wanted to contain my dignity, all I did was say a few sentences at different times, abit fiercer that I normally come across. My last sentence was, stop aggravating me before I took serious action. lucky he took my advice and went away, else he would have died. bad news, some people saw me. not good for the image. sighs. temper, reign in, reign in!

three, my debate case is not going well. but debaters dont die so easily. (:

four, I am having my piano exam tomorrow, and I am so so so scared I will fail. so so so so so scared.

five, you.

okay, shall stop complaining, so urgh-y.

will keep you in my prayers, not like you know who is you. things will work out just fine, like I told you. how I wish I can add a dear at the end.

Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 12:10 AM

lovable churchies - hearts!

Friday, March 21, 2008 @ 11:58 PM

just came home from a run, and I am about to burst from my thoughts. not a pretty side I guess- fats, blood and intestines remains, plus abit of grey matter and fingernails. eww.

so, didnt go up today for service with the adults, and was in church since like 1. hahaha, practised for worship in the evening, and as always, with the few churchies, we always manage to high like mad.

dinnered then back to church, where we were quite pissed cause the boys were quite late to meet us again. they got blasted, nevertheless. haha. they went to chaowang's house to eat, and the girls had gone to Kovan to eat..

worship was okay, just, okay. not as good as we had hoped it would be, put passable. I absolutely love kids, lovelovesloves. hahaha, abit of secret leaking, and secret smiles hor? (: couldnt bring myself to watch the video of the crucification. would think that I would be immune to it, having seen it year after year. but I just had to stand up, and get out of the room for a while, such a loser.

took p3 for their art,and although they are not angels, I think we managed quite well. realised that ground rules and plenty of space to manuever between them are all that are needed to keep kids within control. taught them step by step, and at least, I had them basically at the same pace, and with nice works. (: I still owe them candy, really. haha, didnt have enough with me to give them all.

went down to run after I came home, just to have a little bit of quiet and a way to expel things that are unwanted. maths now I suppose, dwelling will, and shall not become a habit of mine.

I smiled, numbly. did you guess what I thought? eagerness and smiles pretty much masked it all.

@ 9:45 AM

feeling really recharged now, since I slept at 8 last night. wanted to wake up at 10 to get some research for the newest motion done, but was too tired. woke up briefly to switch off the computer, reply smses, and ploped right back to the comfortable embrace of pillows and blankies. (: it helped alot. really. didnt realise how tired I actually was. though nowhere near that of my seniors. been feeling lethargic, so I guess, now that I have had sufficient rest, that should be solved.

yesterday was funny, laughing gas season with the debaters before Fiona arrived, and then we played around with the "sweet box" that I borrowed from Glennis just for that purpose. HAHA. I tricked the whole debate team and they all had a 'shock' from me! yay. Xinhui said I was evil, but I said that we have to "share" the good things that we had, not. hehs. 'shocking reception' for Fiona, haha, what a bold student I am, HAHA. Fiona wouldnt mind though, being the best coach ever. (X

"so, brainstorm for a moment, and dont walk over to the two HCI guys over there, especially the sexy looking one with long flowing hair" inside joke inside joke eh! -smiles-

then we went to the MRT station, and fiona has to top up her card, haha, this cutecute boy that was as tall as my waist gave me two receipts! haha,so adorable! -smiles widely- omg, I love kids. (:

okay, stop blogging and smiling to yourself alrdy g, go get research done! (:

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 10:24 PM

the sky finally cleared. so did my thoughts.

@ 10:07 PM

I am supersupersuper happy today. yes, supersuper happy. cause we won! omgg. the sweet satisfaction. hmm, my debate style still needs to be worked on, nowhere near as sophiscated as estee or Joy's. fumbled abit, as first speaker. haha, first time as first. always did second or third. VJC has a nice school compound, and there was a cedarian on the IP team. a SCG girl that I recogonized too. haha, small debate circles, everyone knows everyone else. something about the third speaker drew me though, hmms.

photowhored abit after our win cause VJ has a nice school environment. not really my dream JC though, dont assume. a huge relieve, cause we made mistakes, but who doesnt? and besides, we are still learning. I am seriously going to train myself to use cards. honestly. if it is going to help, then I am going to pick it up.

vid, san and rashmi came down. met the legendary Sneha and Amanda. haha, whoo, Sneha is one scary senior, but boy, I am someone who needs to be whacked when I make mistakes. xp see, I have nice seniors, which is also why I am particularly shocked at Sneha's erm, I dont know. it aint attitude, it aint rude or putting down or anything. Maybe it is just the force and the determination. haha.

took a lift from fiona's bf, and boy, did I felt weird. hahah, was grilling estee about maths and alternating between someone's crticism of Joy's hair, not that I see anything wrong with it though, with romantic music playing. HAHA. situational irony. maths and romance do not go together.

went for icecream with estee for abit of an unwind before we get our next motion tomorrow. (: the shorbet was nice and the conversation flow easy. walked home after that, and if you think that walking home in court shoes through the park is easy, I dare you to do it. my leg hurts like mad. omg. haha, torture equipment! what can I say? CCU is not easy wear I suppose.

Oh, today we wrapped up osmosis and diffusion. haha, the red blood cell concept. I get it already, next time you want to commit suicide right, dont be stupid and dirty the floor with blood! just inject a syringe full of water or sugared solution into a vein. haha, cutting away all the explanation, your red blood cells would either burst or it would shrivel up and die, so no oxygen, no life. easy right! (x

I once thought you would be there to share my victory with me. but today as I cleared the unsent sms, I knew, that I was lying to myself all along. yet, I still wish, that you were here, to revel in my victory. my first victory as a speaker, and you are not here to let me share it with you.

Monday, March 17, 2008 @ 11:17 PM

yeshyeshyesh. sooo, geraldine has not had a decent sleep for three days or more, for some weird reasons. hmmms. church was okay yesterday, found out that the few of us were in SF comm. was surprised, who wouldnt be? there were a majority of sec2s. haha. and of course, my dear churchies are practically all inside.

worship training with Mingfeng was amusing, especially during the practical work part. haha. caris + Hongxun = no work done. but heck, we have alot of fun, and we also always manage to get something out, so, I aint complaining. (;

been reallyreally tired, cause I havent been sleeping well. haha, my mom was happily abusing a certain someone just a minute ago in my room. hahah. ohwells. was trying to defend him without looking like I was. she doesnt know the full story, and doesnt know the characters' of the people involved. I know, and I infer for the other one. how can I not know? ohcrappiness.

oh, on a random note, my hamster's spoilt. it sleeps in my mom's pencil case and crawls on the sofa! spoilt hamham. haha, remembering the shadows of the past. -sheepishness-

JG's tomorrow. back to tottering on courtshoes I can hardly manage and (hopefully) putting those VJIP boys down.

palpitating heartbeats-piano exam's next week./:

Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 7:36 PM

cedar has inspirational messages on whiteboards. (;

@ 6:00 PM

yes, so yesterday was a very enjoyable day, despite the fact that I only turned in at 3am in the morning.

went to fill up some important papers yesterday. bad news dummies, we have to change some plans. those who still do not know what is going on, call me or jak. haha, not too major to be of a worry yet. slight ammendements will settle it, I guess. (:

went to meet bel and sherilyn afterthat, but was waywayway too early. haha, walked around aimlessly, seeing as all the shops werent open. Went to look at the tickleart exhibition at the esplanade, cause I was never one to sit in macs alone, and one of the exhibitions had the meaning of laughter behind. something was wired to keep laughing, supposedly to remind people not to forget how to laugh. Far from making me feel like laughing though, the sound mocked me. It teased out not laughter, but the stirrings of tears. left, and walked to the esplanade, and just sat outside, near the habour.

so we finished our storyboard alrdy, and we have done our research for elizabeth choy. mhms. piano lesson-ed after that and went home to chiong case. haha, yesh, due to a slight change of circumstances, I am going to do first, something I have never attempted. second, third and reply I have done, but just, not first. ohwells. good exposure I guess. (:

finished the basic skeleton for the case at approx 11.00 am in the morning, when I had to leave the house at 11.15am to reach school on time. talk about, phew. I said I could, and I did. Thank you lord, for answering my prayers.

ohyes, the food and drinks at TCC are good eh, Isabel? (;

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 8:21 PM

motion is out today, so I spent the entire morning playing the piano, very distractedly, in view of the upcoming pratical that I have, and trying to refresh whatever I learned on sunday, all the while thinking of what the motion would be. I kept wanting to sms estee, even though I kept telling myself that she is in school, having her chem spar. aiyehhh.

so me and sya met for lunch, since mal couldnt make it today, being supersuper sick. get well soon dearie! and we were farfarfar too early. went to bugis street and walkwalk. super funny. ended up shoving ourselves into the library early anyway, since we were too bored. (:

so yesh, the motion is out, THBT hollywood has an unhealthy influence on the rest of the world. proposition. and I am not speaking for this round. a relief actually. I absoulutely loveee debate, but sometimes, I get really stress out for major stuff like JG's. In a way, it is going to be quite a learning experience, I can perform and think better without all that stress, and still be involved in the prep and research work. (: goodgoodgood.

me and mich were craving for fattening fried food when we were in the library researching, and I finally satisfied the craving for iced mocha. caffine addict that tea can help solve, I guess. Not as good as the one in starbucks or coffeebean, but definitely cheaper. so cheapskate. XP

walked around with sya and the seniors, laughed plenty, and took pictures! estee, LOAD ah! went to get donuts cause estee's mom directed that she go and buy. High-ed all the way back, and now, since I am not in the most pleasant of mood due to stuff not to be typed out here, I am going to stop typing and go do my research for poohjalekha. (:

could I have this kiss forever? let me down softly, dont throw me down?

I dont want bruises.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 6:44 PM

share in my triumph, the fakest of them all.

@ 6:16 PM

so I finally had the time to plunge my butt on the sofa to watch Phantom of the Opera. dont know why so many people loves the phantom. despicable fool, prisoner of supposed love. Emmy Rossum is good at her role, Gerard makes a decently foul phantom, no comments. Bitter love, indeed. The scene when they sing All I Ask of You made me tear though. am suck a idiot when it comes to this.. honestly speaking, the songs all are splendid. (:

say you will share with me one love, one lifetime. say the word and I will follow you.

share each day with me, each night each morning.

love me, that's all I ask of you.

so, today can be called baking day I suppose. In view of the fact that I was looking for activities to take my mind off stuff, and I needed inspiration for my movie, I decided to bake. three batches of chocolate chip cookies, a tin of chocolate truffles. (: my arms ache from whipping all the ingredients though. bet my whipping arm can develop muscles if I bake for a week consistently. ouchs. the rewards are more than worth it though, my mom's students polished off everything. (: talking about ouchs stuff, really, ouch. I cant believe what I did. I actually removed the tray from the oven without mittens. funny, really. I couldnt drop it though, it would burn my leg, and I couldnt scream, else my mom would have killed me and bar me from baking, ever again. so I just grinded my teeth and made it to a safe area to put down the pan. now my right hand has blisters popping up, especially on my fingers. sheesh, lesson for the day, concentrate when you are baking. ouch.

so, motion's out tomorrow, and we are meeting at the library. I want manymany research done, really. haha, the sec2s are meeting for lunch though, before we head to the library together, bonding bonding! (:

oh, I read you blog. so explicit. so clear. I dont know how to react. ohmy. I entered cedar, safe in the knowledge that nothing like this would happen. but it is, right in front of me. I dont know what to do.

Je pleurerais pour l'importance d'émotions si je pourrais.

Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 11:08 AM

oh-hoy captain. stormy skies in my head

@ 10:57 AM

so, it is the start of the wonderful march one week break,and it doesnt even feel like a break to me. the crazy me actually woke up this morning, bright and early at 5:30 to put on my school uniform. my dad was like: gerald? what are you doing? and I actually replied, going to school, duh. haaha. my dad must have been so amused.

so toppled back on the bed, and tossed and turned and tossed and turned, and slept fitfully. for some reason, I kept thinking of things. hmms. it is the same, everytime I close my eyes. as such, I have decided to sleep when I am super tired, like at 3am in the morning, just to prevent the memory from re-running its course.

practised piano, ate breakfast, finished maths(yeah!). I just kept thinking of the same things. such a wonder, how many memories unknowingly created in the course of slightly over half a year. hmms. drop it geraldine, just, drop it. maybe, if I am going to be honest, I just cant get over the fact that there is no one I can just pick up the phone and sms to, knowing that the person would be fine with it, and..aiyeh /: you were one of the better things in my life, now you are one of the more angonizing ones. cruel trick of fate, but then again, I should have pulled away when I had the chance, shouldnt I?

JG's motion on wednesday, wonder what it will be on. perhaps debate would occupy my mind enough..

Sunday, March 9, 2008 @ 10:00 PM

so, havent been blogging as frequently, mainly because I am just too beat to. hmms. life's been a whole load of fun, especially the weekends, cause I spent it with the churchies cellies, and they never fail to make me laugh, even at one of the low points of my life, which was specifically, last week.

been feeling oddly lethargic, even debate couldnt really make me feel just OK. talking to michelle help confirmed my own doubts though, however hard it is for me to digest the facts. how I hope I never found out now. it is so hard to swallow.

saturday was spent taking photos in the morning for lit storyboard, and I was doing mainly the establishing and long shots. beach was so beautiful early in the morning, and walking along the new trails with no one around is really relaxing. nature is still the best therapy for me. It didnt harm that I was munching on chocs. hehs. soon digressed though, especially when I turned out into the public zones, and saw the usual couples walking, kissing, and what nots. hehs. I couldnt resist temptation and snapped those too, abeit discreetly.

then it was bbq with the churchies cellies, and we rented bikes while the adults tended to the pit. photowhored as usual. (:

together,

my churchies cellies!

went to caris's house to overnight with xinfei afterwards. girl-to-girl talk, I love. relived a huge burden off me, in a sense, to get rid of everything brooding in the mind for ohso long. the Lord said to not let the sun set on your anger, did He mention once that I should not let the sun set on either my disappointment or saddness?

anyways. church was very average, save the fact that we have recieved our bibles. hehs, so cool right? the whole SF and 1724(?) has the same bible! the speaker was good, favourite, no competition. was crying abit during worship. dont know why either, maybe too many things at one go? had to leave halfway to go to the toilet to compose myself, didnt want everyone fussing over me. xp

haha, same bibles!

had piano lessons, then I and dorcas bused with hanwei to aljunied mrt before going to HX's condo. swam a few rounds, my stamina's deproved. then I was called up to go and do the steam. fell asleep inside! omgg.

dinnered, and now I am going to start on my movie! (:

friends then. just. drifting already, but what had I expected? face reality, girl

Thursday, March 6, 2008 @ 10:30 PM

geraldine is feeling wonderfully..cranky.

yes, a cranky geraldine is usually a sight to behold, but on this occassion, the cranky geraldine is just stabbing away at her keyboard while pretending that the faces of ___,___ and ____ are there, just to relieve abit of my furstration, while finishing the task of the supposedly group portfolio for homeecon tomorrow. wondeful, just wonderful. it is due, tomorrow.

stepped into the house at 9. saw enrica online and asked if she was done with the portfolio, since she volunteered to do it. she hadnt. she hadnt even, started. ohwow, fantastic. then she fires bulletmissles at me, complaining about how she is tired and needs to sleep and all. oh, I didnt know I didnt need to sleep. and, she knew a week before, that she had to do it. and she was saying that she was the only one doing it. crap, I did all of the presentation, dont remember them helping except sending me redundant information, just one pathethic piece?

so, now I am running a fever, having a splitting headache, a racking cough that will probably invade my voice by tomorrow, bouts of vomiting and a stomach cramp that is forcing me to bowl in front of the computer, nerves strung so tight that even the whirring of the fans sounds uncannily loud and I had to turn it off. behold, the geraldine who cant work without music turning off the fans just to have total silence in the room. halfdone english, maths, halfdone reports. wow. just, wow.

tearing my hair out already. but my anger's been spent, so back to the clicks of the trusty keyboard, and back to work.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008 @ 7:59 PM

a pair of footprints, only.

@ 7:44 PM

people who know me outside of school know that I love school, pretty much.
yet, today, I can say I am ashamed of being a cedarian.
no, it is not a typo.

had pupil leaders time during TOP period today, and I was dismayed at the stupid questions asked during Q&A time, and the fact that 3/4 of the school cheered that person on.

"why was my grey shoes booked? my shoes are in the school color, even if it isnt grey, it is okay right!" - note the exclamation mark.
-general population cheers-

I think Grace was too nice, she was explaining that the 70% white was a MOE regulation.
and I didnt know that grey was such a popular color that everyone wants grey canvas shoes. would have pointed that out if I were one of the pupil leaders standing onstage. someone, * identity protected, wanted to reply that they should change our blouse to grey and our skirt to blue then. HAHA. not like she would say that had she been on stage luhs.

"why arent ankle socks allowed?"
-general population cheers again-

omg, this has been dealt with before already! it is so retard, and it isnt a sec1 asking that question mind you. then I hear people commenting on some pupil leader's answer on upholding the school image about how SCGS's school socks are ankle socks. well, according to someone whoose sister is in SCGS, their socks are damn ugly. /:

"budget problems"

like, wth, I remember seeing a pie map last year on how the budget was divided, and everyone could see that track didnt have the majority of the funds. these are not the sec1s protesting, these are the upper levels talking here, talk about no brainers. fine example, just well, fine! you think the track have alot of very good stuff isit? their equipment also like crap, not like you all never use before during PE right? -huffs-

all in all, I was only satisfied with the cheering at the end, and there was very strong school spirit, with cheering at every question (though wrongly applied). was terribly disappointed in the level of common sense among bluegreys though. /:

on a lighter note that does not include me criticising cedarians,

debate was thought provoking, but since I am all in the huff and puff mood now, I shall just keep it to myself. oh, anyways, the sec1s have gotten nicknames for us, their seniors, or more specifically their debate seniors, to remember our names. some really are unexpected, in a sense. haha, and I am so disappointed that my nickname is geraldine, sec2 level rep. like why should that be in my identity! I actually told them my coral nickname, iodine. haha. apparently I turn blueblack upon contact with starch hmms? didnt enlighten them that most people call me gerald, cause that is essentially a boy's name /:

oh el camp's been cancelled becase new policy does not allow overnight camps. debaters are going out for dinner instead. how disappointing. poor exco. ):

and I find myself once again IC of leadership training course due to some change in policies. how furstrating. how time consuming. but we will have fun in the end, we always manage to. (:

oh, and I am addicted to phantom of the opera. thanks to Izah love. HAHA. my louver! Think of me struck a chord in me, so..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjM1Lrsb7I8

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have decisions, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008 @ 4:29 PM

Okay. Let's play a guessing game.
Guess my handphone ringtone.
go on.
okay. I know you give up.
hehs. it is The Swan.
so, trained home with one of my old friends from coral and my phone rang on the train.

*handphone makes noise*
Min: I tell you ah, after watching JayChou's secret right? I keep hearing the songs inside okay
Geraldine: -digging for her handphone- uhhuh. which song do you hear?
Min: Now I am hearing The Swan
Geraldine: that's my ringtone lahs!

HAHA, such a nonsense thing. so school's average, and I am just posting so that I can do maths later abit.

PE was fun. running wasnt much of a problem, but I was running relatively slowly. hmms. was doing defence and shooting for basketball. haha, deepa cant dribble! zomg. I got so furstrated trying to snatch her ball, I made her snatch mine. hehs. and deepa found out that if she said Mr Ang/ Mr Leng or any teacher's name when we were shooting hoops, the ball wont go in. hahaha. and when we did it back for her,“1,2,3 MR ANG!” she got the ball in, wth. Ms Leong must have been baffled. xp

Chocolate cake and Tea are not on the top of my comfort food list. Dont ask why I need comfort food all of a sudden.
School's been a tornado of confusion, with the first bell to the last bell's time a blink away, I dont know why. Been making more effort for some subjects, at least.

maths. so that Mr Ang doesnt make me feel guilty again.

*pokepoke* eh! stomach hard one!

DUH, ABS what!!

HAHA

Sunday, March 2, 2008 @ 8:46 PM

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@ 7:53 PM

I am the biggest loser alive.

...

honest!

dont believe me isit!
sighhhs.

so, I am like, way too lazy to talk about cameron highlands in super detailed details having sat on it for so long, even the memories have fuzzy edges. but yes, we had lots of fun, lots and lots of it, despite irresponsible packlists, rainfalls, tantrums throwing. thank god I had the patience to reel in the temper, else instead of bonding, we will probably have . shudders. and since I am one of those people who have zero patience for photo uploading, just two. credited to bel, bel, LOOK HERE I DID CREDIT OKAY! xp

yes, so, cameron highlands trip aside, our long awaited JG's motion was fiasco-tic too. though that leaves us free for el camp. cant decide whether this is good or bad. on one hand I was looking forward to bathing at a cleaner environment like nadia's house and supper-ing. ohwells. /: cant have the chicken both in your courtyard and on your plate I guess. looking forward to quality bonding time with the juniors, and maybe the seniors (:

so, that aside, weekend's been lax, save the researching for the upcoming debates. sundays are typical, as always, went to the Reference library after piano lessons, and I turned up a nil. cant believe it, really. got my hands on some interesting stuff though.though not of help just yet.

on a side note, piano lessons..mhms. are average for now. I need to practise more. I dont play well under pressure I think. mhms. gotta find a way to deal with it, somehow. but for now..(:

Je trouve me tombant pour lui même comme je garde ma distance. Le piano sera ma ruine

protagonist

Geraldine
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~~coralite~~
cedarian
~~co-leader~~
~~exco, beloved~~
cedarELDDS;debator
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