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Sunday, April 27, 2008 @ 8:47 PM
general feeling of lethargy all around. people type in their blogs about how school's a waste of time, how high school years are dragging, how they wish they could graduate soon, etc etc. and much as I would hate to admit, I am falling prey to that too. but I dont want to. I dont want to dread doing something that I would have todo for the next two years, I dont want to waste my years away moaning and groaning. I dont want to become like some of the seniors, those without anymore passion for debate, those who come just to rake up attendance and get their cca points. I dont want I dont want I dont want. and with the question of IP and people citing reasons like school's boring that's why I am transfering, I am wondering, if I would walk that path, as well..? where where where did my passion for school go to? am I now, just another part of the wonderful statistic that reflects how well the school has done for Olevels? must I just disappear into the sea of bluegrey, simple because I dont have a title? no. I dont think so. today felt weird. like really really weird. I could like hear my own thoughts whirring inside my head even as I was talking to people. physically aware. right. I'm going bonkus already. not a good sign. going to bugis by yourself is damn weird. cause the only time I go there alone, I walk straight to the library, none of the look look see see in shops. but I had to buy presents today, along with getting some research materials, thus explaining the weird behavior. really, I cant stand shopping. and I am NEVER going to shop alone again. debate research is downright depressing.- governments in the developing world should ban sex tourism. I am sleepy. I am feeling weirddddddd. I feel like hearing your voice. right. fat hope. I am just going to stand one side, smile and pretend nothing's wrong. no, what can go wrong? everything's wrong anyway. my friends treat me like some brittle egg shell that will break, they refrain from touching that topic, and the poor shimin who didnt know anything was "scolded" when she brought up the subject, admist unknowingly by commenting on something. I didnt mind, really. cause the more you sidetrack the issue, the worst I feel. the more you treat me gingerly, the worst I feel. I am not weak and avoiding the issue does not mean that I go blind and not see them around. but, it still hurts. alot. not that I will admit it though. sighs. let the past go. constant messaging to not even bothering to reply. I marvel. |
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