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Wednesday, April 2, 2008 @ 9:57 PM
I feel, emo. I feel, useless. I feel, pent up. ahh, what's the scoop? I finished all my homework, at least, those I think that are worth time to do, not like RAFT. can probby come out with it within minutes, why bother to waste my time? I am doing geog revision, and I am still trying to rack my brain to think why plantation agriculture is not good for the people. as far as I can see, it is. I dont feel good, sniffs sniffs. sneezing like mad, and my throat says that it is protesting. not a good thing. I want a hot cup of coffee I want something really cheesy, as in food. I want lots of mayonaise laden food. I want something that tastes both spicy and sour. I want superbrains that can answer everything. I want eyes that are not heavy with fatigue I want a heart that is not trying to multi task into oblivion I want an intelluctual converstation that does not include stupid people being stupid I want many many things now. but everything will be alright, if only I had you. ah, dream on girl. read people's post, and I was feeling, stupid. hey xinfei, that guy isnt worth two nickels of your time, just that he dumped you before you could dump him instead. you had better not started smoking already, else I will be really really disappointed in you. as in, really really disappointed. I doubt you will see this, cause I aint really that important to you right? I remember not too long ago, life was beautiful. I remember not too long ago, I loved the people around me. I remember not too long ago, I was without a care. I remember not too long ago, I was a child. now, I am no longer one. but I ask, why the drastic change? why cant things remain the same, why must I learn to adapt, time and again, time after time? why always me, why not someone else doing it for me? yes, I am a brat. and I want to look, act and BE one. I want to stop being nice already. It is so restraining. I want things done MY way. I dont want to give in, to be tied down. YEAH RIGHT. I am asking for the impossible, I am asking for life to be changed. I know I am being unreasonable, but since it is a once a month thing, to heck with it. I want, I want and more I wants. someone, shoot me. I want to turn back the clock, so that I relive the memories, not only in dreams. sheesh. I hate myself. now I know why I am not worth. cause I am a brat, I only hide under the clothes and mask of civility. |
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