Friday, May 16, 2008 @ 11:05 PM


I dont know to describe my mood as good or bad.

it was good, all the way, I was literally zi-highing in the hall during MTP & shini was as usual trying to whack me into shutting up.

then I came home to check out the Icedar website, and my mood took a 180degree turn, for the bad.
out of the 4 courses I am interested to take, I can only take one.
and why is that so? because, I am not a pupil leader, neither have I been chosen for a talent. cause I aint, not?

shant elaborate, cause I know pupil leaders in school whom are worth every bit of that gold batch pin-ed on their blue blouse, whose slim and smooth tie with the big cedar badge marks them different from us. worth everybit, down to the pair of blackshoes. they call themselves the blackshoegang, & I cant think of anything more fitting. yet at the same time, I know people whom I wouldnt respect, in that same position, no, not one bit of respect. I dont know what to think. sorry if I offended anyone. (: cause I am in no position to criticise. right?

meet the parents was fun. (: well, I am only saying that cause my mom didnt go. and that particular streaming talk, it didnt give me either the boost of inspiration I craved, nor the brightening up of any particular path I should take. the speaker last sunday spoke something that struck me, hard. we forget to leave the most vital decisions to god. and I wonder, am I scared of the fact that I have no control when I do let go? Lord, I put it to Your hands.

where did my high high high in the sky go?








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