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Sunday, May 4, 2008 @ 5:36 PM
what I really hate really hate really hate about myself is the fact that I cant just turn my head and ignore, and bury the past, and tell myself that _____ is no longer the _____ that I once knew. I must turn and look, pull apart the scab that probably had already formed during the week, feel down afterwards, act okay, look cheerful, emo on the bus or the car home, hop down to the library sometimes, and go back and face the computer, the whole mind buzzing. hmm. then the whole cycle repeats, week after week, again and again. destructive cycle. one day I am just going to burst , I just know it. combined worship, in every sense. combined chinese and english. funny moments, me nursing a hangover like headache despite having not touched any alcohol last night, unless you count a small sip of some rose wine. served food during the buffet. everyone's tongs-holding hand shook after that. helped to keep all the chairs with the rest. fun, and the sweating and the movement took my mind off things, and gave me a valid excuse to be upstairs. speaking of which, I am still nursing that headache, and I am starting to feel the stirrings of hunger, and as such, will go and get something to nibble on. |
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