haha, I have no sense of this kinda things! contradicting hobbies and likes, but we always get along just fine. (:

Friday

Debate today, talk about out of touch. finally got to know who the sec1s are. hmms. they did okay for their first debate, and I can still remember OUR first debate. definitely worse-r. and I seriously screwed up third okay. first was still, okay. though I was overtime. I am falling into bad habits, not enough fire, not enough sense, too fast. ohnoohnoohno. third, hahaha, the shortest prep time ever for me to get a case. rawr.

"Michelle, since Thanveer left already, debate against yourself!" - fiona, quote of the day

and she didnt do anything for opp, best ah best. so I did, and screwed up in her place. nevermind, screwups now are better than screwing on the competition floor.

lunch! hehs, I was the only junior, how annoying. but I enjoyed it alot, and no more KFC the next time for Bugis. Soup Spoon! and crepe which Jolene is totaly in love with! HAHA.

okay, back to editing photos so I can save them and go print it and put it in _____'s thingy intime for tuesday!
the worst thing that could happen, would be that the person you love is so near, yet so out of reach. keeping a nonchalant face. it's that hard to just be normal. so hard knowing that every move, every glance, every facial expresssion people are looking. so hard to sit and wait for everyone to be done when all you want to do is run in the opposite direction. to sprint, to sprint far far away from everyone, to be alone. so hard to just be you and not someone else you yourself hardly know. keep up the guard woman, no defenses down. you're on the defensive, and you are at an disadvantage. how I wish..I were just a normal girl with her crush her age, and free, to do whatever I want to. no. I choose this. and I'll just, stick with it, and wish you well in my heart, I guess.

seeing them together, or any other couple, hurts like nobody's buisness now.

but I cant, and I wont cry.